dehli's pov-
*at the airport*
"i'll miss you guys so much" calvin sobbed into my hoodie. "we'll miss you more shithead" i laugh through the tears. everyone came in for a group hug. "nick you're quiet" i say noticing his silence. "he should be here" he sighed. "nick it's okay honestly" i put on a fake smile. "our flights boarding" mia pulled me away from everyone and we waved our goodbyes. it's cliché but a part of me wished ryland would show up and kiss me. a really big part of me. i grab mia's hand and whisper "it's all gonna be okay" she smiled genuinely and we boarded the plane.
rylands pov-
i got there as fast as i could after turning back five times. she was gone. i never got to say goodbye.
9 months later-
mia's pov-
i break down for the fifth time today. my miscarriage broke me. it's been three months. dehli is the biggest support in the world. i really do have the best, best friend. she's been gone all day. i can tell she misses ryland but she does a fucking good job of hiding it. she doesn't think i notice when she cries in her car. i still feel extremely guilty about the way things ended with them. i was snapped out my thoughts by a notification. it was thomas. my jaw nearly dropped. we haven't spoke in nine months. i let the call go to voicemail i couldn't face him not even over the phone. "look i can't get ahold of dehli. she is probably still pissed you both have every right to be" i just scoff at my phone. "but calvin's in hospital, he missed the pool jumping off the roof. his back is broken and his leg is fucked. you both mean the world to him. i think it's best you come see him. you're welcome to stay at the hype house, you dehli and your baby, maybe eventually we can talk. bye". i ran to the kitchen as fast as i could. "CALVIN'S IN HOSPITAL WITH A BROKEN BACK" i yell out of breath. "i'll book the flight" she sighed.
the next day-
dehli's pov-
"you worried about calvin?" i nudged mia as the the plane took off noticing her worried expression. "that, facing thomas and having to explain to everyone why i don't have a baby with me" she frowned. "babe after the way you were treated you don't need to explain shit. you tell them when your ready and if it all gets too much there we'll book a hotel and visit calvin without them" i smile. "you're the fucking best d, i don't know why ryland ever let himself loose you" she joked. my face dropped. "d i'm sorry i-" "it's alright" i fake smiled. ryland there's a name i haven't heard in a while.
mia's pov-
"patty's at the hospital he can't pick us up and alex and kouvr aren't replying" dehli sighed. "try thomas" i shrug. "m you sure?" "yeh" i smile genuinely. i miss his company. "he'll be here in a minute. he was teaching chase how to drive earlier so him and some other old faces will be in the car" "do you think he means ryland?" i ask. i clearly scared her. "you don't think he would do tha-" "NO obviously not" i lie. "oh they're here" she smiled weekly. i grab her hand and and we approach the tesla. "HEY GUYS" chase yelled jumping out the car and hugging us tightly.
dehli's pov-
"i missed you shithead" i laugh returning the hug. "shit it couldn't be in better circumstances" mia sighed. "chase who's in the car" i whisper genuinely scared of seeing rylands face. "nick, and ryland" he whispered back. my heart skipped a beat. "i-" i couldn't speak. "i'm sorry" he whispered with a pleading look. "oh it's okay" i manage. i approach the front seat not making eye contact with ryland. the journey was silent.
we arrive at the hospital only to find out it's past visiting hours and only family are aloud in. "oh we'll le-" ryland went to answer the nurse. i kick him and speak up "i'm his sister and these are his cousins" i flash a convincing fake smile not willing to take no for an answer. "right this way" she guided us. me and mia shove past everyone kneeling beside calvins bed. "DEHLI MIA!!" he tried to sit up. noticing the agony he was in i shoved him back down. "broken back remember dumbass" i smile. "i missed you both so much" "we all did" chase added. me and mia smile. "uhh where's your kid mia?" calvin asked innocently. i notice the sadness in mia's eyes and answer for her. "we'll explain everything later just rest for now cal" i smile. mia mouthed a thankyou confusing everyone. calvin fell asleep shortly after so we left. another silent car ride. "where do we sleep?" mia questioned thomas. "oh- uh well you always stayed with me and ryland and there's no other free rooms right now so tonight it will have to with us but tomorrow kouvr and alex will set up a bed in there if that's less awkward" he rubbed his neck. "smooth" i mock. ryland laughed and we made eye contact. it hurt so much to see him. "let's go then" i run up the stairs not bothering to wait for him. when i enter his room i realise we have to share a bed. FUCK. he stayed a good distance away from me in the bed. it hurt like hell. i remembered all the memories we shared in this room; him killing spiders for me, getting high and rolling on the floor laughing uncontrollably, him holding my hair as i threw up after 40 too many vodka shots, me braiding his noodle hair, us smoking cigarettes on his balcony, that time he convinced me to play fortnite, every passion and love filled nights in the sheets i'm laying on. i began to sob into my hoodie. he turned me to face him.
rylands pov-
"what's wrong?" i ask. "memories" she continued to sob. i wrap her in my arms kissing her forehead. soon i was crying too. "i'm sorry i made you cry" she apologised hugging me tightly. "i'm sorry i made you leave" i mumble. "i heard that" she replied sitting up. it's been so difficult without dehli. when she left it broke me. i haven't been the same. i don't believe in a god but i still preyed every night that she'd come back. i was lost. and now she's back and we're in the same bed. but it's not the same. what we had i don't think we'll ever get back. my fans haven't stopped asking me what went down between us but i've never been able to bring myself to explain. i'm not sure i even know. "got any cigarettes" she smiled drying her eyes.
