TBH- I Just Wanna Be Alone.

School

        Everyday I wake up at 5:30 and get ready for school. Of course my sleeping habbits would be terrible. The only escape I have from fighting and rude poeple is disturbed in the blink of an eye. I leave my house at 6:00 to go to the nearest bus stop which is a 45 minute walk. It could be a 5 minute drive but my douche parents decide to make me walk so that  they can slepp in for as long as they can. Once I get to the school bus stop I  am alone, just like I am for the rest of the day. Do you ever just wish that it was as easy as first grade where you walk up to soemone and say "do you want to be best friends?" the answer is almost always yes. If it is no then you walk up to a new person.  When you get to about middle school, it all changes and you are with new people every week. I was never with any crowds. I was always alone and this suckish pattern continued in high school. On the bus of course I was alone. 

        The worst girls in my school took the bus. My day of bullying had already started the minute I got to the bus stop. It didnt really bother me anymore. If these bitches gave me problems tahts when my headphones were in the world was compleltely different. When these peopl were rude, all I could think was when I was famous or married to someone famous from 1D or 5SOS I could get you hated by a fandom real quick. When I arrived at school people just laughed at me. It used to bother me, but then I realized they  were jealous because they wanted my style but couldnt afford it. They wanted my hair, but had burnt crazy hair. They wanted my everything but couldnt have it. I often wonder why anyone wants my life. Even if they didnt know about my parents and home, they see me alone at school. That was all about to change, my lonliness was about to change. 

        Our class just got two new students. One of them was a girl and the other, a boy. I was flabbergasted when the guy hit o0n me. That was a first. I knew that wouldnt last long. The girl started talking to me. I was suprised and didnt really know how to feel.