Heal Me || Dahyun × Eunwoo ||

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Dahyun's P.O.V

The cold breeze hit my face gently as i stood by the river, peacefully watching the water run by without any worries in world.

Sometimes, i just wish that i would have no worries in the world like this river.

But i have more worries than i feel like i can handle. And most of these worries come from me being an idol and always having to stand in the spotlight.

I have to look perfect, i have to be pretty, i have to maintain my weight, i have to be humble and kind, i can't curse, i can't be compeletly me, i can't date, i can't be caught in a scandal and even if i have done absolutely nothing wrong i'll receive tons of hate from the public.

I mean it was always my dream to preform and be an entertainer but the toll it took on me and the responsibilities i had been given are now almost too much for me.

But then again, if i hadn't become a kpop idol then i wouldn't have met any of the members of Twice, i doubt i would have been able to pay rent, and i'm pretty sure i wouldn't have met any of my now close friends.

And most importantly, i would have lived my life regretting my decision to not be an idol.

So i feel like i should be extremely thankful, because a lot of people want to be where i am now, i shouldn't be so ungrateful for what i have because i have a lot more than i can imagine. I have great members, an awesome company, best fans ever, hella good friends and my talents that i can freely show to the world.

But do i really enjoy all this? Is this really good for me? And shouldn't i think of myself first before thinking about others?

Honestly sometimes people can be such hyprocites. Especially when it comes to laziness, looks, dating and weight.

Normal people can date, they are not shamed for being fat or ugly but i guess kpop idols just aren't normal humans and so they get blamed for everything they do, even when it's not neccessarily their fault.

They would be critizing us about our weight and calling us lazy, when in reality they'll be at home eating chips and cake rather than studying for the super important exam they have next week.

It's just so unfair.

And they themselves will look like a saggy potatoe but call us ugly and dumb.

Like how can humans be so heartless?

I just don't get it.

I just wish there was some way i could actually be considered a human with feelings and not some robot who can't make any mistakes.

I just wish people would let me be me.

I just wish i can be normal....

"Dahyun!"

"DAHYUN!"

The voice pulled me out of my trance as turned around at the mention of my name.

But looking at who was calling it just made me want to turn back and run away.

Gosh, no not here. I'm not ready for this!

"D-dahyun...." Eunwoo called, taking deep breaths as he reached me. It looks like he ran all the way here, and he seems to be alone.

"I.... i was looking for you."

"I can see that." I replied in a monotone voice, turning my back on him and just hoping that this was only my imagination.

This can't be real.

"I went to your dorm first but you weren't there and then i met..." His voice faded out as he looked at me confused.