Love, Love You.... (Short Story/One Shot Compilation)

Unexpected (2)

"you lie to me! All this time!!" I snapped at him the moment we both sit on my porch.
"I never lie to you" he snapped back at me.
"you never told me you still high schooler!? I thought...."

Kim shakes his head. "I thought you're more mature than that. What's wrong being a high schooler? I'm a senior in most desirable high school. I'm a smart student. What's the problem? My uniform? Next year I'll be free from it!"

"yes I know. But..." I stopped myself. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"you never ask!?"

Well, that wasn't wrong. But it's more than that.

I'm embarrassed. Physically, Kim is perfect. At least he's not a baby face. Even he told me he's older than me, I'll believe him. Who knows he's younger than me??

"tell me, how old are you?"

And he tell me when his born. His birthday and all. Damn!!! 11 months younger.
"I still... I'm confused." I shake my head. "I thought you're older."

He smile sadly. "is that the problem? If I was older it's not a problem. But I'm younger and you ashamed to have me as boyfriend?"

I shake my head. He make it so simple. "It's not like that. Kim, I'm not ashamed. It's just...." I can't find an excuse.

"no need to continue. I understand. That guy, is your ex right? He laughed at you because of me. And because that, you feel ashamed.

He stands up and walk away. I want to stop him. But I can't. I wanna cry. He drove away. I can hear my heart break.

***

I'm a fool. I'm ashamed at first. Because that asshole laughed at me. But so what?? He's a high schooler, only a couple months he'll graduate.

I thought about it. And I realize, I don't care about his status. It's not his fault, he born later.

I try to reach out to him. Call him. Chats him. Thousands of time. But he ignore me.

I feel sad. Way more than broke up with Champ. It was my ego that break that time. But this time, it's my heart.

I refuse to talk to anyone for days. Even my friends start to worry. But I shoo them by saying, it's too much homework.

"just go see him" Godt told me. "talk to him. Tell him your true feelings"
"he hates me" I nearly break down.
"how could you so sure?"
"he ignored me."
"he just broken hearted. He's sad. That's all. It's normal. You looked down on him. That's why you need to talk to him. You look awful. You really like him."
"even he's younger?"
"even he's younger."
"but..." I try to find excuse.
"go to him. Tell him your feelings"
"but I don't know where's his house."
"do you know his school?" Godt looks so annoyed. "he finish at 3."
I frown. "how did you know?" I asked Godt.
"my cousin school there. Just go. Wait for him till he's done. Talk."
"okay. I'll go now"

***

It's been awhile since I arrive. The security guard even come to me.
"waiting for your sibling?" he stare at me. "it'll be over soon"
"no sir. I'm waiting my boyfriend." I'm waiting for some laugh. But he just let me in and told me to sit on the bench.

I refuse. I prefer waiting outside where I can see him before he can runaway.

I walk back and forth in the front gate. Once the bell rings, I gather my courage to face him. I look around to find him. The gate was open and some uniformed girls and boys come out.

I try to find him. It's pretty hard because so many people. Floating people. Some of the students look at me. In a wierd way.

Then I spot him. He's taller than the others. He's smiling. Laugh at something his friends said. I think he doesn't see me yet.

I want to call him but he spotted me first. And his smile was gone. He freeze. His friend try to talk to him but he stop them by his hand.

I walk closer to him, so does him, walk closer to me. And all come back to me. Everything. He's good side. He's warm smile. He's gentleness. He's attentive towards me. Everything. And I know, I don't care if he's younger. I love him.

"Kim" I called him once our eyes meet.

I see it. A glimpse of longing. But it replaced by something else in a second. "need something?"

I'm speechless. I take the book he lend me from my bag. "your book. I want to return it."

He take it. "that's all?"

"I'm so sorry"

"It's okay. Just forget it" and he almost walk away. But I tugged his sleeve.

"wait. I want to apologize. About that misunderstanding."

He walk back to see me in the eyes. "what misunderstanding? That you ashamed having a high schooler as your boyfriend? Forget it, Ter. Or should I call you big bro?"

His tone was so harsh. He never do that before.
"Kim, please. Don't mock me like that. Yes that time I was ashamed because that asshole make fun of me. But it's not because you're a high schooler. I'm just... Shock. That it"

"is that it?" he said. "you done?"

I gather all my courage and look at his eyes. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I hurt you. I'm confused. But not anymore. Kim, please, give me another chance."

He stared at me. In silence.

"please. Just this one. Will you give us another chance?" I feel like a thousand years already passed while I'm waiting his answer.

"what do you think?"

"I don't know. That's why I ask."

Kim don't say anything again. He just stare at me.
"what about you? Are we still boyfriends?"

I nibble my lower lips. And stare back at him.
"don't look at me like that. You make me feel guilty. Yes or no?"

"hum... Yes." I whisper to him.
"I can't hear you"
"YES!!!" I shout at him. I can hear claps. Damn!!! People having a good time watching us.

Kim looks so bright. But his smile still not that wide. "are you sure? You don't feel ashamed?"

I frown. "are you? I'm older you know?"

He didn't answer. Just hold my hand and pull me outside.

The End