★Will I Ever Be...Ok?★(re-creatng, Sorry Luv.)

i¿Iida?!

~Deku's POV~
I almost lost balance, until a pair of arm wrapped around me. I was shocked. It was my mother. She sniffled into my uniform. I hesitently hugged her back. I was so confused, happy and, shocked. She hasn't hugged me for so long, I missed it. Im confused on why's shes crying. She looked up at me, us still hugging.
"Izuku, I'm so s-sorry...i-im a horrible! Mother! Ive put you through so m-much!" She sobbed. I felt horrible. She left the hug and put her head down with her hands fidgeting behind her back..
"I-i....I'm fling to stop drinking. I'm g-going to be a better mother...honey I'm so s-sorry!" She practically screamed the last part. Counting to sob, she burried her hands in her face. I ran twords her and pulled her into another hug.
"Mama, its okay...I love you. Thank you..."I had just realized I was now crying. Im so happy! Maybe this pain is all worth it in the end! I'm so proud of her, she can do it!
"Mom, im so proud of you, no matter what you do to me. Youve overcome so m-much. Im glad to have you as a mom. I forgive you." I gave a smile. She looked me in the eyes, and shed a small smile. I let go of the hug.
"How could you I've done so much to izuku you shoudlnt forgive me-"
"No mom, its okay." My smile grew. She is trying for me. For me, shes gonna try to let go of alcohol. My smile quickly turned fake as realization hit me.
"Hey, what fling do happen to...sir?" My moms, 'fuxkbudyy'. I didnt know what else to call him.
"I cut ties with him...honey your okay now." Her face showed simpathy and sorry. I felt so happy, and so grateful.
"I'm going to make dinner for you. How does katusdon sound?" She said, knowing katusdon is my absolute favorite.
"Yes please! That sounds amazing!" I said excited. Today, isn't as bad as I would of first thought. I woke up this morning and thought no one loved me. Then Iida, and my mom, they helped me. 'Iida...hes so, so nice to me. His hugs are to die for. Having his arms wrapped around me, comforting me. I love-'
Katusdon. I love katsudon. He wouldnt EVER love a loser like me. I don't even think hes gay!
"Hey mom, I'm gonna straighten up my room a little, is that okay?" I asked, lying to the person who just offered to make me my favorite food. To the person who is trying to give up a drinking habit for me.
"Of course! I love you..."she said, almost whispering the last part.
"I love you too." Another tear slipped out of my eye. Her face lit up before walking off to the kitchen. I turned around walking to my already cleaning room. 'Go hurt yourself again. Yeah, real pathetic, izuku.' I thought to myself. I walked my room, shut the door, and locked it. I quickly walked over to my desk in the corner of my room and pulled out a new razor.
⚠TRIGGER WARNING!⚠
(There WILL be triggering images and words in the next paragraph or so.)
I popped off the plastic, reviling the sharp part. I stared at it for a few seconds to process what I'm about to do. I rolled up my sleeve to see a mess of new and old cuts. I pressed the razor my wrist and drug it across and empty space. I felt reliefed, but at the same time sad. Wasn't this supposed to help with me being sad? I repeated this action until my wrists looked like a Bloody mess. My eyes memorizing the uncleaned cuts that painted my right arm that had once been free of self harm. Some of the cuts were being surrounded by bruises, while others seemed as if just a scratch.
My once clean tile floor, had been painted over with my crimson red blood. My wrists look horrible. I felt the hot tears stream down my face. I stopped and realized what all I did. I panicked. Then there was a knock at my door, I didn't know what to do.
"One second!" I yelled throught he door." I ripped my sleeve down , hoping it wouldnt bleed through, I'm still in my U.A uniform. I threw my rug on top of the blood. I opened the door with my now sore wrist to find..
Iida?!

A/N~IM SO SORRY. I THOUGHT I HAD HAD THIS CHAPTER PUBLISHED ON THURSAYDAY!!!!!!!AHHHH! also, sorry for it being so shorttttttt annnnnnddd. Highkey iideku ship is so underated...oof :/