Purge Me, Daddy

5

It was day 3 of the purge, the ruckus and bombing had eased down once again. Me and the girls barely made it out of town alive passing a few other people both dead and alive on the way, we killed who we could and ran from who we couldn't. A red jeep had been trailing us so we went on a bit of a detour of course but Kaycee got impatient with all the cat and mouse facade. Her hunger and sleepiness kicking in as she finally tossed a grenade under the car. I chose to keep my mouth shut the minute she gave me a death glare, daring me to rant about giving off our location. I knew better than to mess with her while she was hungry.
Now we were all seated in the living room, Jenny was tied to a chair and the mouth gag was now slouched around her neck.
This was it, this was what I have always wanted. A closure.
Oh she was gonna get it but first a deep dark unsatisfied part of me had to know, so instead I found myself asking

"Why?" Kaycee and Daniel must not have expected that because their heads snapped from me to the thin lipped cheerleader who sported a few bruises on her collarbone, her eyeshadow smudged onto her forehead.

"What do you mean why, aren't you gonna kill me" she snarls hoarsely

"I need closure, you're not a stupid fucking psychopath Jenny, I know that, what I wanna know was what you got out of fucking me over countless times" I say ready for her to say it was for fun, to confess that she took pride in torturing my already fucked up lifestyle. That was all I needed to pull a trigger. End my misery of seeing this bitch

"That's your problem LeeAna you think everything is about you that's why Christian-"

"Watch your tongue" I snarl out racing over to her so I could press the lovely curved blade to her throat. Her eyes twinkle with a moment of fear before they go stone cold again.

"No, you don't get to do this to me you asked so you should know the truth. Its because of you-" her gaze lands on Kaycee who now visibly gulps as she looks at the wall behind Jenny, momentarily clenching her teeth.

"You bullied me because of my best friend?" I ask confused. What the fuck was going on here? What did Kaycee do?

"I hated you because she wouldn't look at me, ever since I arrived in this shitty town Kaycee was my everything. She was there for me through a lot and then you and your shitty friend had to get in the way of it" she growls out

"What does Daniel have to do with this" I push on digging the tip of the knife into her neck, not enough to draw blood.

"Not Daniel, Christian"

"You better start making sense" I threaten not able to connect anything she's said so far. All the swerving in the van must have banged up her head a bit too much.

"I love you Kaycee and I've never stopped" she says her words pouring out of her with no ounce of lie in them and at the same time shocking the hell out of me "Kaycee left me to comfort you because Christian broke your heart. She forgot about me, spent more time with you than she used to with me and before I know it I was nothing but a memory, you took her from me so it was only fair that I took Christian from you and don't lie to yourself by saying he's nothing to you anymore. I see the way you two look at each other, and the way you look at me"

"Wait wait hold up" calls Daniel before coming between us. Kaycee was very quiet during this whole thing unable to comprehend what was happening "so you hated her because she stole your ex girlfriend and...you hate her not because she's a bully (we know no one bullies you Lee) so it must be because she dated Christian?"

The only way to accept the truth is by hearing it out loud and that was the truth. I wasn't being bullied, I was being tortured by the sight of my ex best friend and Jenny together but that feeling was mutual for her, because she only had eyes for Kaycee. The whole bullying story was just a cover up of the truth. The only way to see the dirt is to pull the fresh green grass. We had hauled all the grass from the earth and now we were left with the dirty truth.

"I-" was speechless. For the first time in my life I didn't have an explanation. I dropped the knife. Looking down at my dried bloody hands as my breath hitched. That's when a big nasty realization dawned upon me.

Everyone I killed. All the people I hurt had been associated with Christian. The guy from the debate team got into a fist fight with him.

Julia from bible club got pregnant and tried to pin it on Christian

Todrick Cooper got him into detention for smoking, which he had played no part in

Jenny slept with him

All these people I hated. I killed because they got close to Christian. I wanted myself to believe that I hated him when in reality the signs were there to prove otherwise.

"Me too" it was Jenny who whispered this cutting me out of my heart clenching revelation "I know we aren't suddenly besties for lives or any of that shit now and that I have a lot of fixing up to do but you need to know that I am willing to put the past behind us. All I've ever wanted is what you have and all you've ever wanted is what I had. I'm willing to start over if you are, if you don't believe me then kill me now, at least now she knows that I love her"

"Jenny" Kaycee is the one to speak as she makes her way over to the gloss eyed cheerleader, seating herself on her lap she whispers a few words to her and then they're kissing. My heart clenches as the guilt works it way into my system. In the end I was the bad guy, I pushed someone I cared for away and broke up something that could have lasted a lifetime if it wasn't for me. I let them have their moment-a moment they should have shared long ago-and walked out of the cabin into the dark murky woods. Crunching beside me let me know that Daniel was right beside me

"Turns out I'm the monster" I say hanging my head low as my led shoes idly crunch a leave into the ground a bit too much than necessary "I kept telling myself the things I wanted to hear and not the things I needed to hear. Hoping that one day it would be true. I wanted her to hate me. To give me a reason to hate her but she didn't I was the one who started it. I fucked up Dan"

"Yeah you did" she confesses "but that doesn't make you the bad person, Jenny should have said something instead she played it out the bratty way, Christian left you not the other way around you gave him a choice and he made it"

"But why do I feel so guilty, lost, hurt its just- I just have this thing happening inside of me every time I think about him and now that the truth is out there. God what am I doing"

"Baby, that's for you to figure out, just know that I'm always here, what you did for Kaycee earlier was something I know that Jenny would be forever grateful for"

It wasn't all my fault but some of it was. Nobody could prove otherwise. Nobody but him. Later that day we talked. Me, her, Kaycee and Jenny. Turns out Jenny did do a shit load of fucked up things to me as did I to her but that's where we started to have a lot in common. I realised that her words were from the heart the moment I grasped the way she would look at Kaycee. We smartly gave them the bedroom to sleep in and we took the couch. They had a lot of catching up to do.

"I'm kinda sorry about your friends. No hard feelings?" I say scratching me neck even if I didn't kill them I sorta felt responsible

"Don't sweat it. Truth be told I was gonna kill them myself-long fucked up story- you just made it easy for me" waves off Jenny as she snuggles into Kaycee more. They look so happy together. A part of me was whispering sheer negative thoughts about Jenny only wanting to play her way out of the cabin. Out of my death grip but I didn't let that control me too much. All I'm gonna say is if she hurt Kaycee...

"So party" chirps in Kaycee this catches Daniel's attention as she's the to jump up onto her feet

"Oh fuck, yes this is my language!" She screams as we all laugh "I've got our outfit planned out and since Jenny is joining I prepared one for her too"

I groan rolling my eyes at the mention of outfit. There was no stopping the fashion addict when it came to this. Daniel was practically shaking as she rambled on about what we were wearing and who was looking after what, shit like shoes and nails. Jenny even pushed in a few points here and there offering to do our makeup and hair. Wednesday was a no kill day and the other two days that followed was when shit started up again. We had all agreed to remain in the cabin after the party, there was no need to kill anyone anymore but I still had unfinished business to look after so it didn't apply to me.