Purge Me, Daddy

8 - Edited

We laid silently in bed staring at each other.

He was flat on his back, one arm behind his head the other on his stomach, apparently the ceiling was very much interesting to him, I turnt away from him just in time to see a gun laid out on his dresser, two knives puckered on it. That wasn't there last night.

I would know since he gutted me down on the poor thing.

This was it.

It's over for me

"It's for you" finally after hours of silence the first eagerly anticipated words that came out of his mouth "I know you hate me and I know you were looking for me, I got what I want and you can get what you want"

"What did you want?" I ask taking the knifr instead

"I want you"

I always thought that romance books were far too dramatic with the difficultly breathing, the heart-stopping and butterflies and I was right. I couldn't bring myself to feel any of that as much as I willed it to be it just wasn't there

"It's always been you, I have loved you before I knew you" he says "Lee baby, what happened between us was stupid and immature and wrong so wrong, I hurt you and I don't have an excuse for it so I guess..."

"You love me?" I ask shifting over to him. I straddle his waist, the one I had ridden to the pearly gates far too many times last night, surprise surprise he was ready again.

"With all my heart" he confessed and I saw it. I swear I could see it in his eyes. He truly did love me. This wasn't the cocky guy from years ago or the cold hearted monster I left. This was something more, he was something more.

"Baby" I say " I'm sorry I was just- I couldn't bare the thought of you leaving me okay. I couldn't be alone. I still can't. I'm bratty and clingy and needy-"

"And all I'll ever need" Christian brings me down to him. The warmth of his body seeping through my skin to thaw at my cold heart. Sadly that wasn't enough

I let my fingers roam his every muscle, let my nose take in his every sent and finally

Let my knife drive into his shoulder.

A blood curdling scream leaves his lips and I'm roughly shoved to the floor. I take the impact like a woman scrambling to my feet a few seconds later

"But I was never enough" I growl suddenly seeing red and slamming another knife into the other shoulder. I could feel the beginning of one of those tantrums tinting my lust red"this isn't a fucking teen fiction, you don't get to sleep with whomever you want then think you could own my heart just like that. I have to say you're great in bed, just not great with feelings"

"Lee" he groans, no doubt it pain. Good "god damnit Lee why can't you see that there will only be you"

"Good then let my face be the last thing you think of when you rot in hell!"

I didn't care for the pleading look he gave me or the painful grunt escaping his lips. I was not the bitch to be fucked with.

He could be replaced...I think

My heart couldn't.

Last night I realised something when we fucked. He was good. So good he must've had experience. What kind of man fucks the whole town then declares his love for you. Sadly I wasn't one of those bitches. This wasn't a fairytale and it certainly wasn't my happy ending.

It was my closure.

"I am not a toy, I can't be played with using your feelings, I can't be bought with your fancy words or perfect body. I don't forgive and forget I kiss and kill, I must say my acting skills are on point though"

I could already smell the gas in the air meaning the diamond earpieces worked perfectly when it came to communicating. Kaycee was doing her job and so was Daniel I wonder how many tanks were hauled in here, you see I didn't want that shitty cool blaze gasoline would give you I wanted a big boom. In a way it mimicked the sound of my heart breaking that day

I loved Christian. I truly do but I wish he felt the same way about me all the time, not just on and off. What's mine is not yours, it's all mine and sadly he wasn't. He loved me. Cared for me, no doubt would take a bullet for me but he wasn't mine. All his bitches and skanks were waiting for him in hell, he'll be there soon.

"Oh and Christian" I say tugging a black silky robe on. Ooh fancy "tell Satan his baby says hi"

"Are you crazy!" Yells Jenny scrambling out of the van " I thought you fucking loved him!"

"I am and I do" I shrug the heat of the after boom scorching my skin and thawing at my heart. Ah that was more like it.

"I'm in a waffley mood" sighs Daniel

"Me too"

"Yeah late night fucking got me kinda hungry too"

"Crazy! You're all fucking nuts. This could've been a perfect ending I can't believe..."

"Hey do you guys wanna ditch this town?" We let the angry rants of Jessica fade away as we take a nice slow walk down the bloody streets of my town. Yeah this could have been a sweet ending but trust me. Revenge is sweeter

"Hell yeah"