"Are you okay? You look a little pale." Miranda asked.
"I'm fine," I replied.
We walked into the kitchen and sat at the bar. "Let's just talk first." I added.
"Okay." Miranda replied. "I was wondering how work has been going."
"Good. We have been writing and we finished Something in the Water. Now we are recording and making some adjustments."
"That is good. Now that my new album is out I have been pretty busy. What has Mike been up to?"
"Mike has been busy a lot and hasn't been around much, but things should slow down soon." I replied.
"That's good. Blake has been busy too, but I guess who isn't. The other day you left off saying "I wish..." Do you want to start there?"
"Okay. As I was saying, my childhood was pretty ruff and my parents were always fighting. When I was younger my best friend had these toy guns and I remember playing with them one day and I got a thought. I wish words were like little toy guns."
"What exactly do you mean?" Miranda asked, a little bit confused.
"I wish words were like little toy guns. There's no sting, no hurt no one. There is just a bang bang rolling off your tongue. There is no smoke, no bullets, no kick from the trigger when you pull it. The best thing is that there is no pain and no damage done, just a bang bang rolling off your tongue."
"I get it." Miranda said. "Words are being fired back and forth, but they aren't real. All they are is pretend, like a bang bang rolling off your tongue when your a kid playing with toy guns. They don't hurt."
"Exactly." I said. "There is no pain and they don't mean a thing. You are just playing."
"Wow. I can't believe you thought of that as a child. I would of never have thought that deep."
"Well, when something like that goes on all day and you can't get away, all you do is think about it and think about what you wish your life was like instead."
"That would be really hard." Miranda added.
"It was and I used to think about how my life was horrible, but look at me now. I have an amazing husband and I am a successful singer, with amazing friends. what else could I want? I should be over this by now. I don't get why I'm not."
"Carrie. You listen to me. That was a very hard thing to go through and it will always be with you. You shouldn't put this on yourself because it is not your fault. If I was in your position I would be way worse than you. You are one of the strongest people I know and you need to stay that way."
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Little Toy Guns
Fanfiction“Miranda, what do you want me to do? I'm not going to talk to a therapist or anyone like that. It would be to hard." “You can talk to me about it. I really think it will help you a lot." Miranda Said. That is when all the memories came flooding bac...
