He fixed me, and broke me

chapter 1:Leaving L.A

chapter 1: Leaving L.A

I started to pack again for yet another summer of missery as my mom screamed " bethany rose torres hurry up" i tried to convince my mom just like every other summer but like every year she still makes me go.Dont get me wrong i love going its not as bad as it seems but i hate the fact that i have to go every year just because im stressed and do things that help relief my stress.

Ok reolisticly this is my story i grew up in a big house with very fortunate parents that could give a crap about me because all they seem to care about is money, when i was 11 they decided to split because my mom caught my dad with another women and from there on its drama and fights between them and now they dont care about anything except whos better seems cheesy but they still  want each other i mean if you seem them making out on the kitchen i dont think youll think there just talking, aside from my parents i had 2 other siblings 1 is engaged and the other one is dead. Hes were most of my stress comes from well because he was my twin and i always blame myself for his death and my parents barely even cared and when they did they blamed me and made me feel isolated  well its been 3 years since he passed and its been the worse 3 years of my life my sister never blamed me but couldnt handle the stress so when she got the oppurtunity to move out she did with her hot fiancee.
i guess this is what gets me stressed and what i basically do everyday is wake up skip school get high than go to a club get waisted than end up getting home somehow go to sleep have the same nightmare of my brothers death wake up in shock panic and end up cutting myself, of course i dont tell anyone the last part i mean for all people know i have a happy life do whatever i want and just have fun but they dont know that my regualr day routine is my usuall escape from my regualar life.Ive never in my life opend up to anyone and im not planning to. Back to what was happening now is im basically going to this boot camp that is basically a rehab for everything,i go to a different one every year and i love it becuase its drama free and i feel accepted, but eventually by the end of the summer i get sent back home beacuse they see me act better around everyone but thats just because id rather live with strangers then live with my parents in L.A.

i mean sure to most people it looks like i have the best life and yes i act like it ok and if you met me you would think im a bitch but cant blame a girl from hiding her emotions and deepest secreats but going to the boot camp makes me be different act different and i love it.i hate leaving the camp  every single year until next summer, my parents are convinced that the people are crazy for sending me back home each year thats why i go to a different location every summer, and here i am going to steady girls boot camp to get fixed all over again.

Sorry for short chapter i just wanted to get most her past and feelings out of the way for when i start the next chapter enjoy hope you like it!