He fixed me, and broke me

Chapter 4:The beginning of an unexpected day

I finally fell asleep but with the horrible image of my brothers death, but i guess i was way too tired to try to stay awake, so i just drivted to sleep.I woke up at 6:45 am which was 15 minutes before i was supposed to wake up so i decided to get my clothes which was basically a dark blue v-neck with black tights and my black combat boots with my green parka sweater.Today was the only days aside from sundays that we can wear casual clothes,and that because of the meeting we have every two weeks with the camp site across from ours that was all boys .Appereantly were suppposed to talk to them,meet people that could help us see a brighter side to things, to be honest i dont know why they did this, it was my first time that a camp did this and i think its stupid and pointless its kinda like they are trying to hook us up with guys, as if guys would actualy care about fixing us.

As soon as i think to myself about guys i remeber what happend yesterday with erik,and how he made me feel.Even though im very irritated that he thinks he can just kiss me like that,its like he thinks he has control over me but he doesnt know me, he cant know me.He is very attractive i mean if anyone saw him they would be amused and very interested, he's  tall muscular not scroony at all, and he has a tatoo on hes left arm but i couldnt make out what it was in the doctors office because his sleeve coverd most of it,any way aside from his gorgeous looks i have to keep myself to try and stay away from him,i dont like it when people try to figure me out, i like being private,and he seems like a nossy person.

As i get ready i try to atleast make myself presentable for that there is most likely going to be really attractive guys,i apply a bit of eye liner,mascarra,and a bit of concealer.I look at the clock and its 7:00am, i decide to leave my hair down in its naturally wavy style, i put my things away,and as i do that,a girl walks through the door.She looks confident and im pretty sure i look very confused um who are you i ask her the random girl thats just standing there, she looks off a lot like jordan maybe they can even be sisters.

Hi im jordans sister, nice to meet you im just here to pick up jordans things then i'll be right out, oh okay i i say, but why are you picking up her things isnt she coming back to the room in a few days? i ask.Not this time shes being sent to an actuall rehab facility shes been here for almost a year and theres no difference in the way she thinks of things and acts so as soon as we got the call we decided to send her somewhere more assuring, not that its not assuring here its just i guess shes just too depressed you could say.

oh i say sound shocked because of what i just heard, well i wish her luck, and to all of you guys, this must be terrible for you.You could say that, i dont know i guess im used to it, and i knew what she was going through for longer but i didnt think it was going to get any worse then just simple negative thoughts.Thats how it usually starts i say sounding sad.So why are you here if you dont mind me asking but you seem tottaly fine and healthy, I am healthy kinda and its a long story basically im a "drug addict", alchohol addict" and some really bad depression mixed with intense stress. oh okay well i hope you get better wish you a lot of luck, i have to go to the office now becaus ethats where my parents are and i need my moms help packing her things away, it was nice meeting you umm... bethany, my name is bethany, oh well then nice meeting you bethany. Nice meeting you too. then after that she was gone and out the door.

Its only 7:10 in the mroning and something stressing has already happend.I grab my addidas sweater, and phone,then put on my combat boots and headed out the door to the docks which is where were supposed to meet everyone so that we can boat to the other camp sight. After about 8 minutes of walking im finally at the docs i see a tall thin blonde girl, tania i say and she turns around heey girl whats up hows life, i heard your roomate went a bit suicide yesterday night, how are you doing, and do you know how shes doing?

Hey and yeah she overdosed, and im fine, but shes being moved to an actual rehab facility,but yeah. Oh that sucks jordan was a pretty cool girl she was always quiet though so maybe someting was happening in her life. After 5 minutes of talking between me and jordan i see the director coming down the hill and says well hello girls you guys are group number 1 out of all 4 groups going to the girl and guy exchange trip, now today is monday and the last group is going thursday.I have a sheet of paper for each of you wich sums up the day and the instructions and rules please read them while were on the boat, and then she starts handing out the sheets.