From Beggar to Idol

Chapter 5

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Your POV

"Wait! Jeongguk?!" he turned around with wide eyes and started to run. I immediately stood up and chased him. I knew I was never going to catch up to him because he runs like Flash so I used the trick I use whenever he runs away from me 3 years ago. I pretended that I tripped and yelled in fake pain hoping he'll stop...and he did. I heard his footsteps stop and ran again. This time, running towards me. "Shit Y/N! Are you okay?!" he squated beside me and helped me sat up and I nodded then smiled. "You still fell for that huh?" his eyes widened in realization and stood up but I grabbed his arm tightly before he could run away again. "Wait Jeonggu-I mean Jungkook. I just want to talk to you, and after that, I'll leave you alone. I promise." I used my puppy eyes trying to see if it still have an effect on him. He didn't say anything and just stared at me.

It still works.

"So, you'll talk with me right?" he nodded absent mindedly and I dragged him to a bench near by. "So, why did you leave?" he looked down not saying anything. "Look, just say it. I don't care if it hurts me. It will hurt me more if I leave without knowing the reason you left me." "I-It's because...I'm t-tired of you."

Jungkook's POV

Stop stuttering Jeon!

I looked up in her eyes to see it glassy. I felt my hand twitch itching to grab her face and wipe her tears but I held back. "Y-You got t-tired of me?" she said in a small voice. I gathered my remaining mental strength and shouted. "This is one of the reasons I left you! You're so fucking annoying! I'm tired of you treating me like a baby just because I came from a poor family! But now I don't fucking need you anymore. Hell, I didn't even needed you from the start! You're the one who chose to be in my life when I didn't want you to!" "Well I'm fucking sorry if I came in your life! I'm sorry I thought you were happy with me! I'm sorry if I annoyed you! I'm sorry I helped you get in a school! I'm sorry I gave you food! I'm sorry I got you clothes! I'm sorry I treated you like my bestest friend in the whole wide universe! I'm fucking sorry!" tears finally fell from her eyes. "I didn't ask you to fucking get me in a school! I didn't ask you to give me food! I didn't ask you to give me clothes! I didn't ask you to treat me like your best friend! I DIDN'T FUCKING ASK YOU TO COME IN MY FUCKING LIFE!!!" I yelled tears falling from my eyes.

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so fucking sorry.

Now she was a crying mess.

Your POV

He's right. He didn't ask me to give him food and clothes. He didn't ask me to get him in a school. He didn't ask me to treat him like my friend. He didn't ask me to be in his life.

I was sobbing so hard I cupped my mouth with my hand to lessen the noises I make. "D-Do y-you r-really w-want m-me t-to l-leav-ve y-your l-life c-comp-pletely a-and p-perm-manent-tly?" even I couldn't understand what I'm saying because of crying too much. He looked down while crying as if thinking hard if he really wanted me out of his life. Then he finally looked up at me. "Y-Yes. I-I w-want y-you out o-of my l-life c-completely." and that was the only answer I needed. I smiled sadly and nodded still crying. "O-Okay t-then. I-If t-that's w-what'll m-make y-you h-happy. A-Also, y-you d-don't need t-to m-move. I'll j-just l-leav-ve K-Kor-rea s-so I c-can s-stay o-out o-of y-your l-life." I said shocking him and making him speechless. "...D-Do w-whate-ever y-you w-want." he said and stood up. He started to walk away leaving me here crying. "W-Wait! I-I h-have s-somet-thing t-to s-say b-bef-fore y-you l-leave! A-Atl-least l-let m-me p-pour m-my ang-ger o-on y-you! D-Did y-you k-know t-that I f-fucking s-suf-ffered?! D-Did y-you k-know t-that I w-waited t-three f-fucking y-years j-just y-to g-grad-duate a-and g-go h-here t-to s-see y-you?! D-Did y-you k-know h-how h-heartb-brok-ken I w-was w-when I h-heard y-you m-moved?! W-When y-you l-left m-me h-hanging?! D-Did y-you k-know t-that I c-cried m-myself to s-sleep?! D-Did y-you k-know I e-even t-thought o-of k-killing m-myself?! D-Did you k-know t-that I t-tried c-cutting m-mys-self u-using a k-knife?! I-If I A-Aizel u-unnie d-didn't c-caught m-me, I w-would h-have u-ugly c-cuts o-on m-my w-wrist! S-See w-what y-you d-did j-just b-by l-leav-ving m-me?!" I said while standing up and running to him hitting his muscular chest using my hands. He didn't even flinch. "B-But n-now t-that I k-know t-the r-reason b-behind a-all this, I-I'll j-just l-leave a-and a-also b-because y-you w-want m-me to." I said stopping and hugging him instead. "Y-You s-see w-what b-big e-effect y-you h-have o-on m-me? I-It's a-all b-because I l-lov-WATCH OUT!!!" I saw a man behind us holding a gun pointed directly at Jungkook. Everything happened so fast that I just found myself on the ground in pain.