the next chapter

am.pm

I thought I remember all the little things about you but

your hand fits in mine like no oxygen gap, the way you refuse letting my hand go in your sleep.

you'll turn into a piece of a magnet when you were sleeping, there's a lot of space that you leave behind and shrink my space.

you checked on me every time you're awake and leave my blanket open for no reason, I couldn't be mad about even I'm freezing to death because you turn the ac on its fullest.

even I was death sleepers, I can feel you sometimes touching my cheeks.

you know exactly when I couldn't sleep even I didn't move as much so you still can enjoy your sleep. you know every time I got up from bed even I tried to move as slow as I can assure.

still wondering how you remember I like back scratch.

you bit your teeth when you sleep and only turn away when I tried to wake you up cause damn it bothered me but I couldn't be mad about it.

that one time, we're about to sleep and you listen to a girl singing and I knew exactly it's her, you play it on repeat couple times but I couldn't be mad about it

I couldn't be mad about anything back then because that's the only time I have with you feels like mine. the time, the place, the love, the heart was ours and I there's nothing I can do other than being thankful even sometimes it broke me a little

it's like what you've said that you cannot be with me and you cannot love me the same against all you did back there, I still can feel how much you need me.

but play pretend is always your best skill. manage to look like you need me when you're asleep from am to pm but I can't find you anywhere near from pm to am.

when I wish I am yours, am pm and all the time.