Tia
Although I was surrounded by happiness I felt nothing. I continued to watch on as the girls laughed and danced around the room, even though Ta'reena stood on the phone in a heated argument with king the most happiness showed in her eyes. I knew she was growing attached to him more each day.
My eyes were beginning to get glossy from all the thinking. After picking up my pack of cigarettes I walked straight into kings balcony. It was so crazy how just a few months ago Ta'reena was dealing with Andre's shit and now she had one of the craziest hoodstar showing her nothing but pure realness. She's turned a hood guy soft real quick. Just goes to show shit can change overnight.
I took another drag from my cigarette as the tears began rolling down my face. I wouldn't allow the girls to ever see like this, I was meant to be the strong one out of the group. I was the one that came across the wisest, the best with advice and decision making all down to my advanced experiences.
As the wind blew i tucked a stand of my red weave behind my ear. I could hear Ta'reena heavy footsteps coming towards the balcony making me wipe my tears quickly.
" Did you fuckin know Kyle has a child " she asked making my eyes widen.
I didn't tell her or anyone for that matter about that argument, I planned to tell the girls tonight but everyone was way too happy for me to shatter it with my depression.
" Yeah I knew " I answered avoiding eye contact with her.
She closed the balcony door and stood right infront of me. Confusion was plastered all over her face. Her eyes wandered from the yellow fluffy socks on my feet all the way to the last strand of hair on my head with a dirty look.
" Explain " was the only word she uttered before the tears began flowing again.
Instead of wiping my tears Ta'reena raised her left eyebrow causing me to laugh at her habit. Normally her eyes would've shown sympathy by now but nothing but a cold glare showed on ta'reena' face.
"No honestly start talking I'm mad right now" she spoke fast still twisting up her face in disgust just ten times worst.
" Ain't nothing to say really " i began and then regretting it straight away.
She walked closer to me slapping the lighted cigarette out of my hand making me gasp.
" Spill the beans this second " Ta'reena shouted now becoming dramatic as usual.
I looked at ta'reena and already I knew what her reaction would be, maybe I slightly overrated.
I linked my arms with ta'reena a dragging her back into the living room .
As drunk in love by the weekend filled the room and the mood seemed to have dropped only being gone for ten minutes worried me.
" Why is everyone now seated and looking all depressed " I asked the girls although I was looking at ta'reena and her screwed up facial expression.
" I'm just tired " angel mumbled closing her eyes whilst the rest said they were just hungry.
The doorbell rang making everyone jump, shortly after king and few of his friends including Kyle barged into the living room.
The rest of the girls eyes lit up whilst sadness took over ta'reena a making me worry.
" I guess we're both keeping secrets best friend " ta'reena whispered following king into their bedroom.
That confused me.
*
KING
As I step foot in the flat i nodded at all ta'reena' friends and headed straight for the bedroom knowing she would follow me.
" Explain now " she shouted slamming her fist into my back continuously.
I turned around backing her into a corner.
" Do you think I won't bang u in your face right now just because I been treating you how a real niggga should don't mean I won't beat you black and blue Ta'reena so I suggest you talk to me like a big girl or move the fuck up" I shouted knowing all her friends could hear.
" Then answer me don't make me feel like a fool then ignore me like a regular" she said her eyes filled with rage.
" Get up out your feeling you know you ain't a regular to me." I said sitting on the bed.
I began counting fifty pound notes. Not even entertaining ta'reenas childish attitude.
" So what the fuck happened" she asked .
"Beg you fuck off reena " he spoke up eyes still on the money.
She didn't reply instead she began packing up all her thing confusing me.
" What are you doing "I asked with a confused expression.
" I'm fucking off as you asked " she replied bitterly.
The thought that came to mind made me release a small laugh.
" Fuck me first I beg you " I mumbled hoping she did hear.
" Let me fuckin stab you up first I beg you " she grumbled back zipping up her bags.
I wasn't even taking her serious, we always had our little petty fallouts and she'd disappear for couple days. But I know she'd be right back.
As I stood infront of the door blocking her from exiting she began throwing her tantrum stamping her feet cursing but I blocked her out as I observed the dark round ring around her eye.
I still hadn't sorted that boy for putting his hands on my woman.
Grabbing her waist as she headed for the door. As we both stood in silence just the sound of everyone taking in the living room and our heavy breathing was present.
" My lifestyle and the shit I go through doesn't need to be discussed with you but when shit gets sticky I need you to understand but mostly I need you to stay the same when shit hits rock bottom" as I spoke slowly her eyes began watering.
I was more than confused now, what had I said wrong.
" How do I understand something I know nothing about I need you to understand I ain't gon let u block me out I don't want half of u I want all of u or nothing atall " she spoke softly as tears poured down her face.
I sighed sinkin into the bed as she grabbed her things and walked out the door soon as I released her hand. Fuck it.
*
Ta'reena
I have no younger siblings no sister just four older brothers, three only believed this road life could make them rich. Whereas my oldest brother Terrance choose a different path deciding to be a judge was a difficult career path as he had many crooks as friends because of his earlier life choices.
So growing up around four boys helped me to know wrong from right, the street code and even how to survive out here with my hands. Although I didn't portray a down ass chick to king there were no ifs or but I could be, I just didn't want to be one.
Painting the bedroom of my new home was my aim for the day, with my phone on vibrate and my music sky high there was no room for distractions apart from my odd moments doing a little whine to the beat.
Although my mothers youngest and wildest brother was suppose to be helping me but there was no sign of him yet.
Trevone was my favourite we was only two years apart and shared the same father. The last son for my mom he was the most reckless out of my brothers but somehow managed to be my best friend.
Being my best friend and in the streets had many advantages, all the down low on king was related back to me so when he thought I had no clue I had ever little detail of his worries.
The ring, his unusual behaviour, his secrecy all lead down to a gun charge he had to face in two weeks. Although we hadn't been together very long the connection we had felt like we had been lovers for years. So when Trevone told me this news I didn't hesitate with my choice.
He will come to me when the time is right and Im going to stick by him through it all.
