dolan twins imagines

how i knew g.d

I was broken. A mess. But worst of all.Numb. Just incapable of feeling anything but just the feelings of pain and rage, and change wasn't in sight

Now I never believe in life getting better. For me is that you just forget about it, and hope you never have to think about it again, but the memories always come at night, and I end up in my moms weak arms once again.

I don't believe in love. I mean I love my mom but would I date her. Gross. No. Well when I was a girl I seemed to love everything. I loved how buildings could be built so tall and I loved how tiny a insect is. That side of me, it doesn't exist. It was crushed

If I didn't believe in love then all those mistakes and bad situations won't be made anymore, and maybe I'll finally get my piece of peace, but I forget my world crumbles before and I see everyone but me with a piece of peace.

What's crazy about love is that when you get a taste of it, it changes everything about you. Your thoughts. Your emotions. Your habits. Your state of mind. Now people use that to your advantage and some simply love the way you are and those things are what they change for the better.

When I met him, I finally got my piece of peace.

Grayson Bailey Dolan, I don't even know where to begin with him. Every guy before him, has left me in a ditch, the last one literally. Every guy before him, has made me more insane than the last. Every guy before him, just wasn't him.

He was very patient with my whirled mind. It seemed he understood every breakdown I had. When my eyes become clear again I would see him with open arms waiting for me.

At first I just wanted to feed on his love. I had no feelings towards him. I wasn't able to but I like the idea I had someone to shower me with dates and compliments. I liked the idea of having someone to talk to and would hear me out without the name calling, but something happened one night that I know I never want to forget.

He took me on a date. This was a point in time where the persons starts to change you. I was very confused with Grayson, everytime I hanged out with him, I seemed to enjoy life the way it was. He helped me see that, but sometimes I just wanted to cut him off you know.

So anyways he took me home and the door was locked. I called my mom, and no answer. I started to freak out, because my mom is always home, and he was there beside him, reassuring me that everything is ok even though he didn't know that.

We ended up going back his place. I eventually found out that my aunt picked up my mom, cause she needed help around the house. To my surprise my mom let me sleep over Graysons. I mean it was late. The signs of coming peace are weird.

I was really scared at first, with every step I took leading to his room, my heart beat would get louder and louder until I was unable to hear around me.

"Here you can change into these" Grayson had said to me. I snap out of my mind as I reach to grab to the cloths. I walked to his bathroom I wasn't gonna let him see me that easy. I'm not a easy person. I don't ever wanna let a guy think of me like that ever again.

When I walk back inside, I noticed he turned off the light and put on his lamp, he had his shirt off with some black sweats. I felt uneasy walking to the bed, laying down in it was traumatizing. Letting myself sleep next to him was crushing. I started to lose myself, but all that stopped, everything negative seemed frozen in place, when I remember i was with Grayson.

I felt myself melt into the bed. I finally felt how soft his covers were. How neat his room is. How you could see every star from his window. I got this very calming relief when I looked at him. I knew I was safe with him, and that's how I knew I was capable of feeling love again.