Love Unexpectedly

Chapter 13

Something is poking on my side.

"Nnnrrggg..." I grumbled. I bury myself under the blankets and hug my pillow tighter. Hmmm...So soft and so warm. I snuggled closer.

After a while, I can feel the poking again. Ugh! Who's disturbing my sleep?

"Alexander!" I can hear my pillow whispering my name.

"Alexander!!" Why is this pillow creating so much noise? I let go and turn around.

"Alexander!" *poke* *poke*

"Mmmm... What?" I open my left eye.

At first, I can only see a blurry vision with long hair. I blink twice then rub my eyes. I look at it again and I see Cassandra in a kneeling position with her legs tucked under staring at me with wide eyes.

"Cassy?" I asked startled.

"Hi" She looks at me shyly.

"What?" I look outside and observe that it's still dark. "What's wrong? Are you having nightmares?" The reason why I insisted her to sleep here is because I'm scared she'll get nightmares knowing what happened last night. I just don't want her to be alone. It's my fault and I felt responsible for it.

"No, nothing is wrong. I'm sorry I woke you."

"What time is it? Can't sleep?" I feel like my brain is still half asleep too.

"No...Uhmm...actually I've been thinking, since we already started it...ahh...last night, can we just continue with it?"

Or not! Definitely, my brain is still fully sleeping because I can't comprehend what she's talking about.

"What?" I sit down and look at her properly. "What are you saying, Cassy?"

"I mean, we can, you know uhmm...try it again? I'm already half a virgin now so I have nothing to lose anyway."

"What? Half what? I don't..." What is she talking about? Is this how her nightmare thing is?

"Oh my God!" She covers her face with both hands, then looks at me. "Never mind that...it was a silly presumption." She chuckled slightly.

"Uhmm...well...what I'm trying to say is, since we've already started having uhmm...sex, you know, we didn't really finish it. So...so I was thinking maybe we can continue with it?" She fidgeted, clutching my comforter tightly.

I became wide awake as soon as my brain started to register what she was trying to say. I'm about to protest but she went on with her contemplation.

"I just want this to be over with. You know, I'm already twenty-five and I feel like I've missed a lot of things. I...I just want to feel special. I just want to feel being touched."

"I just want to feel things, Alexander." She looks at me with her big brown eyes, conveying so much longing and emotions.

"I've been so ignorant all my life. I just want to experience things. Things that were denied from me ever since the kidnapping incident. My life is too overprotected and guarded that I didn't have what normal teenagers experienced. The courting, dinner dates and even going to clubs!"

"I want to live, Alexander! And I want to start with this..with losing my virginity."

"Ahh...I'm sorry, I'm rumbling." She became quiet suddenly.

So she actually wants to do this? I didn't know she felt that way. I know her parents became very strict after what happened but I thought she was okay with it. She never complains or reacted extremely.