I knew it was this feeling when I cared about a person. When I saw her smile, it was sunny. When I saw her sad, it was cloudy. I like her.
I really do but I couldn’t admit it at first. How could a man like a girl just by seeing her smile? Or so I thought. I lied to myself while
yearning for her. And it was too late too realize that I’m too attached to her not just to her smile.
But I never initiated to talk to her perhaps seeing her everyday was enough for me.
I often look outside the classroom window because she sits near the window, faking a stretch
just to glance at her and goes to the cafeteria which I don’t normally do just to see her happily eat a bunch of food. It became a habit.
It is the most important part of my day. To think about it, it’s kind of weird to have this kind
of high school crush. I never knew that I’ll come to this situation. I mean it’s just not me. What’s weirder than that is that I dreamed
and it warned me to not fall in love with her. I just don’t understand it. Maybe it is because I know from the start that I have no chance.
