I just need a lil rant, I'm stupid, I'm ugly, I'm ungrateful, I'm worthless, I'm fat, no good for, and most of all im alone...
When you look at me you think, wow if she could lose some weight and wear some makeup she could be pretty! Or you think 3/10! When I look at me, I see worthless, stupid, unwanted fat bitch.
There was this one girl who I seen the COMPLETE opposite of, she had everything I ever wanted in a girl, beautiful face, AMAZING personality and had the soul of an angle, this girl is my everything, she new how to cheer me up, and I loved when she ranted to me because at the end of the day, I knew more about her, i learned how to help, and somehow she always knew when I was upset...
Then she wasn't ready for a relationship, and I respect her in all ways, but I had so much ready for her ya know...
Like I put everything into it, I bought presents I was gonna bring her when we met, I looked for things she liked, such as Timothy chalmalet ( I think I spelled his name wrong oops-) stuff, reddie stuff, and bts stuff... now it's all sitting in my closet like she will never get to see them, all that time i spent waiting to give them to her, planing the perfect way to show her, give her a better life than her mom did, take care of her and her family... LOVE her...
Now I don't get to do anything with her, my heart hurts, but I still try my best with her, I send her a streak asking how her day has been every night, 6 hours before 12:00 because shes 6 hours ahead. And if she had a bad day I let her rant and try and help her....
I still love her and i mean that with all my heart.
