[Eng] Abandoned [AC FF] ✔

Longing

The star bells jingle when Tanya shakes it. The servants began to dance in front of the fire, accompanied by the drum beat. She raised a bowl of oil higher than her head, chanting prayers. Then she approached Taealha who was carrying her baby with Tagon behind her. She applied the oil to the baby's forehead.

After being blessed by Tanya, Tagon and Taealha go to the podium to introduce their son to the public. While Tanya went to the Fire Fortress, escorted by Mungtae who replace Yangcha. Almost every day she went there, precisely to Saya's room. Even though today she hasn't felt well since last night, but she still took time to the tower.

As she promised, she cleaned Saya's room. Although she could have ordered the servant, she decided to do it herself. Touching his belongings gave a special impression to her, like a medicine for her longing.

Yes, longing. Tanya missed Saya so much.

She did not feel it when the man had just left. But as the days passed, and the seasons changed, that feeling grew stronger.

She touched her lips, "Is it because I kissed him?"

At first, she only planned to use Saya for the purpose of gaining power. Her safe and peaceful village was suddenly attacked. Her people were killed and captured, tortured and enslaved. Her first love was sentenced to death while trying to save them.

You said it yourself.
You told me if i don't have power, i'll never be able to find out.
You told me if i don't have power, i'll never know why we had to go through all that, and why Eunseom ended up dying like that.
That's why I did this.
I wanted to gain a power by using you.
That's what I was planning to do.

Tanya pretended to be submissive and obedient to Saya who was her master. She tried to win that man's heart, by being a good and loyal servant, who always accompanied him, understood him, and was always at his side. And she succeeded. Saya is truly in love with her. He is willing to do anything for Tanya.

Then the opportunity came. Mubaek found Asa Sin byeoldaya in the village of Wahan. Tanya is a descendant of the chief of the Wahan tribe, thought to be a direct descendant of Asa Sin, the highest priestess of the Asa clan who eloped with his lover in the past, the priestess who sent Aramun Haeseulla to unite the tribes into a union, Arthdal.

With Saya's help, Tanya gain the power she wanted, by becoming the highest priestess today. The People of Wahan were freed from slavery, even enjoying the luxury offered by Arthdal.

But ... I regret about it ...

After living with Saya for several months and getting to know him more closely, she feel bad and sympathized with that young man. Unlike Eunseom, Saya can't be free to do whatever he likes. He was locked up for twenty years in a tower. Nobody may know of his whereabouts. He have no family and friend, he always talk to himself. He cannot express himself and his feelings freely. He endured all his pain and suffering alone. He is just someone who wants to step into the light.

Eunseom is an orphan. But he was happy with an abundance of love from the people of Wahan. While Saya have adoptive parents, but they always torture him physically and psychologically. He had a girlfriend whom he loved very much, but his adopted mother took the only happiness he had by killing that girl.

Being educated by a pair of monster parents like Tagon and Taealha is what might shape him into a terrible person. He is ambitious and heartless. He takes the lives of others so easily, without guilt. He kills someone just to see how the world becomes chaotic. But he is also craves for love. He knelt and wept before Tanya, like a crybaby boy who desperated to not be left by his mother, when Tanya was about to leave, because she did not agree with his actions of killing people.