self control — frank ocean
Through out the rest of the night Geesy never left my side. He also made sure that none of his homies got me in videos because I am a very private person and don't want to end up on shade room no thank you. Another part of me thinks he did that because he don't want to get caught up with his girl... who I have yet to see.
Maybe she isn't real? Maybe Geesy is gay. If he was I would be supportive, he could totally be my GBF or I could be his beard you know someone to actually show off.
I don't know I'm pretty faded right now.
"Kaila." Geesy snapped his fingers in front of my face snapping me out of my thoughts, "You good?"
Me and Geesy we're sitting on the couch, most of his homies had dipped already or were knocked out. I was surprised he hadn't gone to sleep.
I nodded lazily, "Yeah I'm fine, was just thinking about you."
"Oh you was thinking about me?" He smirked, getting gassed.
"Yeah, I was thinking about how you might be gay." I laughed.
"Man, what the fuck?" Geesy responded with a disturbed look on his face.
"You day you have a girlfriend but I've never seen her and you don't even have pictures of her up." I gave him a look pulling out my phone scrolling through his instagram to show him.
"Trust me, she exists. She blowing up my phone right now matter of fact." Geesy rolled his eyes clearly annoyed by the thought of his girlfriend.
"You know, you seem to really dislike your girlfriend." I laughed.
"I don't dislike her, she's been with me since the start and I'm just starting off with all this fame shit." He rubbed his hands over his face.
"But you're not in love with her anymore." I frowned.
Geesy's face dropped, he stared straight. "She's been my rider since forever, she encouraged me to do this shit and dropping her while I go up? It just don't sit right with me."
I let out a breath of air, "I understand that, but I wouldn't want to be with someone who didn't want me anymore and only kept me around because they felt bad. That's gotta be worse."
"I don't wanna talk about this shit anymore." Geesy replied getting up leaving me on the couch. His response was cold, like if someone that was annoying had been talking to you. Okay? That's the last time I give a nigga advice.
I pulled out my phone to check the time, oh my god it was 5 in the fucking morning? I need to get the fuck home ASAP! Uber it is.
I walked out to the balcony were Geesy and Tones were at. "I'm gonna leave, it was cool hanging out with y'all."
Geesy got up from the bench he was sitting on, "You ain't leaving."
This man has to be bipolar or something? "Uh yeah. I am."
Tones laughed, "I'm tired as fuck, so imma go knock out but it was cool as fuck seeing you Kaila." I smiled at him as he left me and Geesy outside.
"Why are you leaving?" Geesy looked down at me.
"Because I'm tired." I rolled my eyes at him.
"I'll drive you home and don't roll your eyes at me." Geesy responded in a serious tone. Uhmmmmmmmm he has a girlfriend REMEMBER!
I dropped my shoulders and left the balcony walking out his door to his car. I stood his car for a bit waiting for him to come out.
I heard the car unlock, "You're so fucking moody."
I slid into his front seat and put the seat all the way back closing my eyes. "I'm not moody, I'm just tired now shhh."
You think me trying to sleep in his car would make him not want to blast his music full volume at 5 in the morning but nooooooo, everyone in the neighborhood had to know that this nigga was feeling lovely.
I put my seat back up because even though I was tired this song went hard. "We blowin the hunnids and blowin the woods!" I sang along.
"Bipolar like I said." He laughed at me.
"Nah, this song just go crazy." I bobbed my head.
"For someone who don't sip, you singing this a little extra hard." Geesy watched me as I did hand motions that went along with the song.
"The only pink I sip is that pep if you know what I mean." I raised my eyebrows at him.
"You're such a dork." He laughed.
"Nah, I'm sweeta than a honey bun." I sang as honey bun by Kodak came on next.
"I've been looking for youuuuu?" Geesy sang along with me.
This song had always been one of my fav songs, it was cute as fuck and to be honest I never thought I would ever sing this song with anyone.
"You my type boo, damn I think I like you!" Geesy pointed at me making me laugh.
Obviously this was all a joke so I pushed that gesture to the side.
Geesy turned down the music as he pulled up to my apartments. "Get some sleep and text me when you ain't moody pleaseeeeee." He messed with his hat.
I stuck my tongue out at him, "Bye honey bun."
— ngl my ex man and me would always sing this song. he's a whore bye AF! upcoming chapter we get to meet Lola 😐 let's gooooo.. um also sorry my writing is so bad, i be writing all this at like 4 in the morning 😭
