𝐻𝐸𝐴𝑅𝑇𝐿𝐸𝑆𝑆 | roddy ricch

𝑓𝑖𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑒𝑛 (ℎ2)

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Ashanti 💄
los angeles, ca
7:32 pm

5 months later...

"Say goodbye to auntie Ashanti!"
Hennessy said, voice almost breaking.

My niece Jada cried, meaning that she was saying goodbye.

"Bye Roddy"
I heard Hennessy say.

"bye hen. bye jada"

For the past 5 months, Ive been in the hospital. I can't open my eyes, speak, or move.
Some times I'm able to move my hand or squeeze Roddy's hand but aside from that, thats really it.

The first few days was harder because I wasn't really aware of what was happening till Roddy cried
next to me one night and said I was in a coma.

Speaking of Roddy, he comes everyday to see me and he stays here overnight, but sometimes he stays for 5 hours only if he has to go to the studio or something.

I heard him take a chair and place it near me.
I felt his soft hands connect with my hands.

"hey mamas..."
he said and I heard him sniffle.
"it's 5 months and 12 days today...
and 2 more months and 12 days till our babygirl arrives..."

That's right. I'm having a baby girl.

god please let me wake up to see my baby.
please.

Roddy continued.
"...please wake up cuzz."
he said and I could tell he was crying.

His teardrops fell on my hand which he kissed.

"... i been lost without you cuzz...
i aint known what love really was till i met you and now i dont know what to do...
i been hurting everyday seeing your situation and i ask god why it couldn't be me instead..."

sniffles.

"...i just want you to open your eyes ma...
and you prolly tired of hearing me cry but i really miss and love you."

I felt him kiss my forehead and put his head down on the bed meaning he was about to go to sleep.

Every time he comes over he tells me how his day went, cries and then goes to sleep. He thinks that I'm tired of hearing him cry but it's actually the only thing keeping me from letting my body just shut down. Hearing his voice gives me hope that I'm gonna wake up someday.

Usually when he sleeps is when I try my best to wake up.

god please let me wake up.

i dont wanna live like this anymore.

please.

i wanna see my love.

please.

i dont wanna die.

just please i beg of you.

I attempted to open my eyes.