My crush

Chapter 12

U wake up in the middle of the night from a call from ur dad
D " hey ..."
M " hey what's wrong "
D " so how are you "
M " I'm good hold on let me go outside "
You got up and he woke up
T " hey where are you going "
U walk outside
D " who was that I don't want you talking to boys right now "
M " dad.. I'm good "
D " ur depressed "
M " stop dad it's not like ur doing anything "
He walks outside and hugs u
D " I'm ur father I haven't seen you "
M " yea and Mabye it should stay like that "
U hang up
T " come on let's go to bed "
M " I'll be there in a few "
T " ok "
You go out to the pool and set on the edge
Memories came back and you had thoughts of drowning ur self
U go back inside and laid down
T " u ok "
M " yep "
He turns around
T " what's wrong "
M " ily "
T " I want to help you "
M " ily "
U go to kiss him by he turns away
T " no , what's wrong Madi "
M " nothing " *smiles*
T " I don't believe "
U put ur head on his chest
He pushes u off
M " ima just go "
U go downstairs because people were down their
O " u guys good "
M " mhm "
O " good "
U go upstairs and lay down in ur bed
Everyone but u was downstairs you get a call from Sarah
S " ik what you did to me "
M " what are you talking about "
S " ur crazy you would think I would find out ur starting lies about me and telling ur fan pages to hate on me "
M " what is this a joke "
S " no and just to think I helped you through a lot goodbye don't ever talk to me again "
U go downstairs
Nikita was there making tiktoks
U make a tiktok with addi
A " u seem off u ok "
M " yea "
A " ok "
M " actually can we talk "
A " yea "
U guys go to ur room
A " what's up "
M " I think I have to leave "
A " what I thought u were staying "
M " I just can't take this anymore I need a break "
A " yea I understand "
M " it's just idk I don't fit in here I just everyone here does tiktok 24/7 and I just wanna go and I wanna try to get better and here everyone asks if I'm ok and I just don't wanna bother anyone "
A " ur not bothering me and I get it we all do this but u haven't gotten used to it "
M " it just seems like I'm always in a fight with him I'm battle depression and anxiety and idk ily tho "
A " it's gonna be ok ily to "
M " and if I don't talk to you guys for a while it's not u guys it's me trying to figure everything out ok?"
A " yep I understand just FaceTime me somtimes because I need you "
M " u don't need me I want me "
A " geez come one "
U guys go downstairs
And make a tiktok with charli
C " are you doing better "
M " yep "
C " u can talk to me anytime "
M " thanks "
C " love you "
M " love you I think I'm gonna go to bed "
C " yea me to "
Everyone went to sleep basically
U walked into ur room and sat against the wall and started crying harder than you ever have thinking of all the memories of u and Sarah since u were born
He's pov
I was in bed and I felt bad for earlier so I went to apologize
Ur POV
I was writing in my notebook i write everything in and he walks in
T " hey I'm really sorry for - what happened "
He walked over to u
T " Madi ... what happened "
M " please go "
T " no I'm here for u "
He helps u up and hugs u for a couple minutes
T " let's go in my room we can talk "
M " no I'm good go to bed u need sleep "
T " it's fine come one "
U follow him and set on his bed
T " so what's going on "
M " idk anymore I'm just gonna sleep "
T " stay in here "
M " ok "
U fall asleep
He's pov
I went in her room at around 6am when I woke up to read her notebook to figure out what's wrong so i can understand
Ur POV
I woke up and went to my room to get my phone and saw him taking pictures of my notebook were i write everything I feel everything when I feel so alone and sad or when im mad or happy
M " what are you doing "
He freezes
U took his phone
M " why are you going through my stuff "
T " I'm sorry I just wanted to help and I had to know what u were feeling "
M " if I wanted help or wanted u to know I would have told you so obviously I don't want u to know every detail of my life "
T " I'm sorry "
M " plus I write bad about people in their so u probably wouldn't want to read anyways "
T " about me "
M " yep , but how would u like it I went through ur phone yea ?"
T " sorry "
M " did u read anything "
T " yea "
M " about?"
T " about how u wish u would had never met me "
M " I'm sorry that's just how I felt at that time "
T " it was yesterday "
M " I just don't understand u "
T " wdym "
M " nvm I don't wanna mess anything up "
T " this will never work if we keep lieing to eachother "
M " one minute ur happy loving and then ur mad and idk it's confusing cause idk what to do "
T " ok "
M " I'm sorry I feel like I just hurt u a lot but u shouldn't have read it , wait when have you lied to me "
T " umm ... nothing "
M " what did you do "
T " it was a little bit ago "
M " do I wanna know "
T " probably not "
M " ok well I'm leaving in a little bit "
T " why "
M " I need time to get better "
T " ok "
U hug him
T " thought u didn't need me "
M " what do I want me to do "
T " let me read it "
M " ur not gonna like anything tho "
T " ill read it when u leave "
M " ok "
U hand him It
U pack ur stuff and leave
He's pov
I start reading
" april 27 , today I want to Kms I was at Hawaii and I got into a fight and I just let out my feelings that I had keep in alwhile wanting something to change it never did thought I ended up trying to but he stoped my it would had been easier if he hadn't it would had been easier "
" may 1 , I feel so bad I don't get out of bed and have no motivation I hate this house I'm in it's not the people but kinda it is they really don't understand how I feel and they don't understand what to say to me and they all suddenly care idk "
" may 6 , it just keeps getting worse and it makes me so mad that people ask me if I'm ok because I say yes but mean no and I sorry for a lot of people that have to deal with me "
    " may 10 , today I was trying to be nice to him but he turned me away and it really hurt me I try and I'm alive for him but it just hurt , and plus my best friend Sarah through me away like a lot of people are doing even now I do nothing to then "
" may 11 , I need to leave I don't wanna be "famous" anymore people hate me for stuff I would never do and that's why I don't wanna post it makes me feel so bad that my fans get hate to so I just wanted to stop "
U go home and hug ur dad and start to cry he hugs u
D " what's wrong sweetie "
M " everything "
D " wanna talk "
M " not right now "
D " ok "
* pass about 3 weeks *
He texted you
T " hey I really miss you mads and I was wondering when u could come back "
M " I miss u to , and I told you idk I'm trying to get better and I have started to I just need time then I will "
T " ok can we FaceTime sometime "
M " not today "
T " ok bye ig "
M " bye "
* 1 month after u left *
U start to see in his comments saying they miss u guys
U go live
Ur whole comment section was loving because it was ur secret fp of urself
M " hey guys "
" what happened to u guys "
M " nothing happened we're still friends and everything I just came home and had to take time for myself and stuff but I'll be back soon don't worry "
" ilyam but people keep hating on my but I won't quit "
M " tysm ily to they always hate and I've tried to stop it but haters are probably going through something and have to let it out yea it hurts but just turn ur comments off or ingore them "
" turn ur comments back on 👩🏿🤬🐍 "
M " and blocked "
" ily "
M " ily to "
U ended the live
Bryce texted u
B " hey has addi texted u "
M " no I haven't talked to her why "
B " nvm anyways how r u "
M " good "
B " u guys still dating "
M " were friends😂"
B " no way the way he looks at u there's no way madi "
M " 😂 "
B " I'm just saying "
M " how's josh "
B " good but why can't u ask him "
M " he won't answer "
B " ok gtg"
M " bye "
* 1 1/2 months after leaving *
U get a message from addi
A " OMG ... "
M " what happened "
A " Bryce got arrested "
M " wait what "
A " can u met me their "
M " yea ofc "
U get on a flight a get their and met up and got him out of jail
B " I was only their because I took the blame for josh "
M " why didn't u tell me he did that "
B " I thought u new "
M " no "
A " anyways do u wanna come back "
M " ima be honest with u not really "
A " just for a day I mean everyone misses u "
M " in a couple weeks "
A " ok "
M " don't tell anyone I was here though "
A " ok I won't "
Addis POV
Few hours later everyone was eating
C " so did u get everything figured out "
A " yea madi helped me "
T " she was here like 10 minutes away "
A " gosh I wasn't supposed to tell u that "
T " what else did she say "
A " nothing she just said she didn't wanna be here right now "
He got kinda upset
A " Ik how it feels but she's acts a lot happier she probably just wants to get fully better before coming back I mean she did heal fast I mean from our calls "
T " she calls u "
A " I should probably shut up but I am her best friend and I've known her longer "
Ur POV
I got home and went live and I was a lot of hate but I ended it sooner and went to bed
* 2 1/2 months after leaving *
U were with ur bestie Zoe Laverne

♡︎ 𝟷,𝟻𝟺𝟼,𝟽𝟶𝟶 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎𝚜
𝟿𝟶𝟶,𝟶𝟶𝟶 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚜
𝚄𝚜𝚎𝚛𝟹𝟾𝟺𝟽𝟽𝟿 " 𝚒 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚜 "
𝚉𝚘𝚎𝚡𝚕𝚊𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚗𝚎 " 𝚒𝚕𝚢 𝚋𝚋𝚢 "
M " i really miss my friends "
Z " u should go see them "
M " yea but i havent texted them wnd theyll be mad "
Z " if theyre real theyll understand go !"
Addi texted u
A " i miss our insta posts together 😔✌️"
M " ily and i miss u guys so much and im honestly back to my old self "
A " do u wanna come over "
M " yes "
U drive over to there house because you dont live that far away
U got theyre and opened the door and hugged addison and u walked over to him and he hugged you
T " i missed you "
M " i missed u to "
Addison posted it on her insta story
" i got them back ur welcome guys "
U guys post a dance on tiktok and u read the comments
" 𝚢𝚊𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 "
" 𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚊𝚗 "
" 𝚝𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚘𝚠 𝚕𝚎𝚝𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚐𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚊𝚍𝚒 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚒𝚍𝚗𝚝 𝚍𝚘 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚖𝚝 𝚑𝚎𝚕𝚙 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚜 𝚍𝚘 "
𝚁𝚎𝚙𝚕𝚢 " 𝚒 𝚊𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚎𝚜 𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚓𝚘𝚜𝚑 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚒𝚍𝚗𝚝 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚗𝚘𝚠 "
𝚁𝚎𝚙𝚕𝚢 " 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚒𝚍𝚗𝚝 𝚑𝚎𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚊 𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍 "
Its now night time and u laid down
U text zoe
M " ily goodnight "
Z " ily to goodnight bby💞 "
Cash texted u
C " hey we havent talked in a while and I'm happy for you guys but I still love you and I won't stop till ur mine "
C " I'm sorry I just love you and I would do anything to get rid of him "
U put ur phone down
And get up and go in his room
T " hey "
M " hey what r u doing "
T " noting just live "
M " oh ok "
U go over to him
And lay down and he hugs u
He ended the live and laid down
T " why did u come see me when u were here last time "
M " I just didn't want to be here than leave I wanted to figure stuff out then come "
T " ok well gn"
M " I feel alseep "