Trust and Love (Trevor Philips x Reader)

XI- Change In Scenery Part:2

This chapter is a bit heavy. Trevor's pov once again yeth

Trevor's POV

Her skin popped out from the pale surroundings. It was tan and blotched with bruises of warm colors. I noticed her eyes were always fixated on the thing I hated most; what had accumulated quickly outside the cabin window, snow. Yet, the twinkles of curiosity danced in her expression, smiling. 

I hadn't been in anyone else's company that smiled like her. Usually people scowled in my presence. I quickly shook myself out of it and placed the last of our belongings inside, shutting the door.

''Well that's the last of it. You already got the fire going?'' I asked, glancing over to Y/n for a moment.

''Yeah I did. It's made much of a difference already.'' She chuckled and went over to the stone fireplace and sat down in front of the flames.

''You wanna join me?''

''Mm, sure.'' I went over and sat next to her, wrapping an arm around her middle. 

There was a comfortable silence between us as we focused on the swaying yellow and orange flames, sparks flying and crackling. 

''You know, you're a pretty mystery for someone I care for, eh?''

''Eh?'' She echoed with an snicker,''What do you mean?''

''Oh, you know what I mean and did you just mock me?'' 

''You make it easy.'' She looked over and smiled. I had froze before having made a response. I saw her expression fall and focus once again on her folded hands. 

''There's nothing much to say about me, really I-''

''Bullshit. I definitely know there's more about you. C'mon, spill. It's not like I'll tease you or anything. . . okay maybe a little but it's out of love.'' I finished, earning a smile from her as I pulled her close,''You can tell me anything.''

''Hm..well, let's see. I have a pointless degree in designing.'' 

She struggled as she continued to think. Before she could continue I practically blurted.

''Just speak whatever is on your mind.'' 

As long as I could just listen to her voice, I'd be pretty content. 

''Oh, okay well. I'm happy that we're here and not freezing.'' She lightly chuckled, earning a small grin from me. 

''Cheers to that.''

''And I'm happy that it's a different season. That I don't feel lonely anymore.'' She paused and adjusted herself to focus better on the fire, rather than her hands.

''I'm a bit scared that people will find us. I also have been thinking about heroine again and that makes my arms itch and ache. I also wonder sometimes if I'll ever die because of my body being so dependent on it and also why my mom thinks I was such a failure. I never once said I loved her after I got kicked out. On her phone record, I was the last person she called and who called first was me, in a raging fit-''

''Y/n-''

''She died of a heart attack months after that. She didn't make one single phone call in that amount of time. She pushed me. She disregarded my feelings. Oh and to wonder why I did drugs and sold my body to have a decent live that was a fucking cardboard box-''

''Y/n hey-'' I pulled my arm away from her, seeing her trembled and tense up in a blink of an eye. She buried her face in her hands. 

I knew this too well. 

''I'm such a fuck up. I-I feel like I failed everyone I know. They-They probably think that I'm dead! If that were the case, at least I would have one thing I'd be able to control!''

''HEY!'' I yelled, which was something I rarely did around her-- or tried to avoid it. 

She gasped and was quick to be in shock, covering her mouth with her shaking hands. 

''I-I'm sorry! I didn't meant to It's just-''

''Shut the fuck up.'' I told her and hugged her tightly,''Just shut up and cry already. You can cry now...you can cry.'' 

I felt the one I loved most crumble in my arms. She sobbed in my shoulder while I held her. So much anguish, plea, I knew it. I was staring at myself in the mirror. I loved this woman and damn it if I let her suffer like this any longer. It was the ones who looked the strongest, hurt the most. 

''I understand.'' I said, feeling tears prick my eyes,''I understand that feeling. I've lived through the lies people would tell me, the promises that broke. People that I had loved died or let go. But not me, I'm here. I promise. My mom was the same. She watched my dad abuse me. She would sent me to rehabilitation centers to get me out of her hair, two if I remember. Then I would eventually be sent off to five different states, two countries, fourteen different homes, eight fathers to see and three care homes I've set fire to.'' I let out a small sigh as her cries had slowly subsided into hiccups,''I'd say I was a well traveled shit head. It took me years to find who I was. I even set for the skies as a pilot to just get away from it all.'' I paused and looked into her glistening eyes.

''I've done shitty fucked up stuff. I've killed people, stolen things, used people's advantages as my advantages only to kick them to the curb. Life is gonna fucking suck. It's gonna bite off your dick- or well you know what I mean. But without the shitty stuff, then how would we know where the truly good things are? Like you.''

''Me?'' She sniffed and I used my sleeved to wipe off her snot with a snicker. 

''Yeah, you. I'm glad you practically dented my car and sent me flying down the streets over your drug induced illusions. Maybe then I wasn't a happy camper when you booked it, only to get kidnapped by those cunts called bikers, but I chased after you. Your flaws and all.'' I smiled softly. 

''Are-Are you crying?'' 

I sighed in defeat,''Mm, maybe a bit.''

''You're a softie.'' She smiled a bit. I felt her warm soft hand caress my cheek.

''Say that again and I will not hesitate to throw you in the snow. You're sounding like Michael with the hipster thing..eugh.'' 

''Okay. . . ˢᵒᶠᵗᶦᵉ. I won't push it.''

''I'll let that one slide.'' 

A change in scenery within the change of heart. Two matted and shattered souls had picked up the missing pieces of one another that night in a once cold and lifeless cabin. Now only filled with the new found love for one another. 

Maybe relocating wasn't that bad after all.

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wow don't I spoil y'all? How has everyone been doing? I hope well. I've been procrastinating on my online work, only cause I know I can get it done quickly so I'm not too stressed.

this chapter was definitely something. i know continuity errors can be found in stories, so im trying to keep it a bit more natural. you're getting closer to him <3 how cute ! i love him so much ok-

thank you all for supporting this book so far. i DEEPLY love the comments and encouragement you give me. i don't deserve it ah qwq