One Eternal Bond. (One Shots Many Include - Smut )

Like We Never Loved At All

Summary: I tried to find a way to live without him but I couldn't. It was just too hard. Everyone told me that I was strong enough to go on. I was wrong. Character death.

You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath the city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But I'm still living with your goodbye
And you're just going on with your life

You used to hold me late at night, kissing me, touching me in ways that no one else will ever be able to mimic. You would give me the sweetest shy little smile as you looked into my eyes burning me with your honey colored ones as you lay beside me, promising to love me forever.

Now it's her that you hold in your arms. She's the one that you're promising forever to and it makes me sick.

Just in case you're wondering yes I hate Maprang. Sure once upon a time she was my best friend but the day that you chose her over me she became my worse enemy. She has what I want, what I deserve and I want her as sad as she can bear, because of it.

You know how painful, how torturous it is for me to see the two of you together? To see her walking beside you in my place?

I'm a masochist for watching the two of you. Walking, holding hands, laughing and whispering softly to one another and I feel myself start to lose control, running off from the canteen and scream, before I walk over to you and pull you away from her and cause a scene.

I'm still living with your good-bye, yes each and every day that I wake up knowing that you'll never be mine again hurts more then words could ever describe but I guess you don't care about that. You have your precious LADY to live FOR, meanwhile all that I have are the haunting memories of you and me, of what we could have been. How could you do this to me? Did you ever once stop to about what your decision would do to me?

How can you just walk on by Without one tear in your eye?
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?Maybe that's just your way Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

It's nice to see that somehow you've managed to move on with her. Oh I know that you told me that it was hard to make this decision, how hard it had been for you to give me up but looking at you right now I can see that it was total bullshit. You're a selfish man, Arthit Rojnapat and I hope that you'll never be happy. I want you to hurt just as badly as I do. Maybe I loved you more then you ever loved me. No other explanation makes any sense. I could never walk away from you like you walked away from me and even though you've ripped my heart out I still love you. I can't help it I'm hopeless, I'm helpless when it comes to you.

You are the keeper of my heart and soul because of this I know that I am doomed. I haven't forgotten about those nights you know. The ones where I let you use me, use my body when you first started seeing her, afraid that you might hurt because you're going through a 'phase' of attraction to women before 'WE' happened But I didn't care. I just needed to be with you, no I had to be with you so I took what you were offering with great pleasure.

You, I hear you're doing fine
Seems like you're doing well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is?
To letting go, letting go like you did,
like you did