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Secret (Joon's POV)

Namjoon's POV

Ah, y/n's back from the shopping. I feel like im a burden to her hhhhh

Its been like a week im living with her and.. wow shes fun. Like really fun. I didn't feel like a guest or stranger i feel like im her friend already.. eben tho i frel like im burdening her :')

she kinda reminds me of my mom hahah
Idk if she's actually sincere in keeping me here or she's scared ill hurt her..

"Kim Namjoon"

ah-

"Yea.." i dont want her to realise i was thinking about her oh my god so i keep staring at my phone.

"Aye look at me"

phew guess i had to look at her huh, keep calm namjun

I finally turn around.

"Well?" I asked
"Well.. my brother's coming over in 2 days" she stated

"ah.. that...."
im.. afraid.. will she leave me?

"Do you really have nowhere to go joon?" She asked

silence.

She wants to leave me.
Im going to be left alone again
The past is repeating-

"I..." he only look at the floor
"I'll leave if you want.." i finally said

she looked surprised by what i just said.. why? am i wrong? Shes not going to leave me?

"Joonie, no" she cupped my face "im not asking you to leave, its just that are you ready to hide in the guest room? Without going outside if my brother's here?"
She says

I look at her, pretty relieved shes not leaving me
"Yeah i dont mind much"

Then i felt an arm wrapped around me.
Y/n..
Y/n is hugging me-

"Its actually fine you know having a companion, hahahah" she said.

Im actually shocked she just hugged me like that..

As shes about to break the hug, I instantly hugged her back

"All these years ive never felt actually being loved, wow" i said.
Thanks for accepting me, y/n

...
wait
Will she notice what i just said?

"What do you mean?" She asked.
She did noticed
"Ahh. Nothing, hahahah"

Sorry y/n. I had to lie.

Then i break the hug and just look at her.

ah wtf am I doing-

"Ah i guess ill go make uhm dinner or sumn ok?" She left before im able to answer her

...
Im having a weird feeling when she hugged me..
Like i feel so..
Comfortable???
What the helll is this feeling...

Guys please bear with me I'm still getting the hang on it sksks.
And I'm actually not ditching this book if I didn't update its just that  I don't have internet yet :')
I'm sorryyyyy