Die Tonight - [5sos]

Prologue

This pain is taking its tole
But my love it never gets old
The trials and defeated emotions
Keeping me sane with magical potions
The heart that keeps my blood flowing
That pain that keeps me down but going
If the pain leaves and love stays,
How would life be for me???
Would I have a whole in my heart
Where hurt and pain used to be???
Is there a way out of this...
Loving, Painful, misery???
Is there a way in to this...
Love that I have failed or neglected to receive...
Is this love???
Unconditionally loving you is...
Bringing me pain
But it keeps me sane because I have you...
Am I kidding myself???
Am I in denial that you love me back???
Am I just a dream away from reality???
Am I making believe that I love you???
I think not...
But pain keeps me going
My heart keeps my blood flowing
You keep my life glowing
Jesus keeps me believing
My calmness is showing
But my happiness is hiding
From pain and love
I unconditionally painfully love you

Jasmine S. Johnson