JIKOOK | ONESHOTS

🥀 | the fall of happiness.

warnings: MCD, self harm, eating disorder.

18th December, 2019

the blonde haired boy moved around the dance floor, his bare feet making little thuds against it every time he jumped.

his sight really was a beauty, if only he realised

if only he loved his body.

if only he ate something after a week.

***

11th December, 2019

"getting chubby again, jimin?" jin laughed, meaning it as a joke.

little did he know how sensitive the boy was.

"yeah, jimin you're uglier than yoongi!" jungkook laughed, the boy that had just been named shoved him.

"shitty vocals, ugliest member of bts, fucking chubby!" jungkook ticked the things off his fingers, he looked up at jimin with an innocent smile, but everyone else had gone quiet.

"maybe you went a bit far, kook." hoseok murmured, but jungkook scoffed.

"it was a joke, right jimin?"

jimin didn't meet jungkooks eyes when he nodded, "yes." sounding slightly monotone.

a few of the members looked at him in concern, but brushed it off; jimin wasn't sensitive, he was always smiling.

***

12th December, 2019

jimin didn't eat at all that day, instead he intensely exercised, none of the other members had realised though, jimin had probably just eaten without them.

"he probably stuffed his face when we weren't looking." jungkook laughed, speaking to namjoon and taehyung. jimin overheard that, and quickly ran up the stairs, a shaking mess.

"am i ugly?" he asked himself, hugging himself as tears fell down his eyes.

***

13th December, 2019

today jimin decided to stop eating altogether, he had entirely given up on his struggles to stay healthy, and instead concentrated on staying thin.

"i can't be fat," jimin told himself through the heavy tears he had kept from the other members, "jungkook told me so."

jungkook didn't realise how much damage his words could cause, he was just 'joking'

perhaps his own way of flirting, as he did find himself attracted to the 24 year old.

"hey chubby chim, where were you today? eating alone in your room?" jungkook asked jimin when he walked downstairs, not noticing that the already skinny man was looking thinner already.

jimin didn't notice though.

***

14th December, 2019

on that day, jimin pressed a lighter against his skin for the first time in his life, one he had brought a few hours prior.

it was satisfying to burn his blemish-less skin, he felt like he deserved it so bad.

jimin gasped when he heard someone opening the door to his room, he quickly switched off the burner and threw it behind his bed before pulling his sleeves down and placing his arms behind his back.

"hey chubby chim," jungkook smirked before he sniffed, "why does it smell of smoke?"

jungkook started at jimin clearly for the first time in days, noticing the dangerous loss of weight.

"hang on, have you been eating in the past few days?" jungkook asked him, suddenly feeling guilty.

"of course, i've been 'stuffing my face' like the pig i am." jimin recited almost robotically, jungkook looked scared, "you haven't been listening to the shit i've been telling you, it was all a joke-"

jimin shook his head before pushing jungkook out of the room, ignoring how his stomach grumbled loud enough for jungkook to hear.

***

17th December, 2019

jimin hadn't come out of his room in 3 days, he had spent that time doing nothing, except exercise occasionally and drink water.

everyone was worried, especially jungkook. they were about to send someone upstairs before jimin walked inside the room, for everyone it was the first time they had seen him in a few days.

it was scary.

he looked dangerously thin, to the point he could collapse any second. he looked pale, and sick. he was wearing a suspiciously large jumper, and kept on tugging at the sleeves with worry.

this didn't feel right.

"jimin, why the fuck do you look like you haven't eaten in ages?" taehyung shouted, jimin flinched back with scared puppy eyes.

"of course i've been eating tae tae, i'm a pig, aren't i?"

his voice sounded happy, horribly fake.

"jimin, you're not a pig." jungkook mumbled, and ended up receiving 5 glares.

"you can't talk, jungkook." jin hissed, his stare was ice cold.

jimin frowned at the situation he had caused, quickly grabbing a glass of water and running back up the stairs.

***

18th December, 2019 - current day

jimin continued to dance in the empty room, the whole world growing blurrier by the second.

he hadn't touched food in a week, that was extremely dangerous but jimin couldn't bring himself to care.

"i'm fat."

he said.

"i'm ugly."

he whispered.

jimin heard a muffled click of a door opening, and stared at the blurred figures that were slowly tilting, the shapes rushed towards him.

jimins felt his body thud against the solid dance floor, his vision completely blacked out.

jungkook pov

jungkook opened the door the the dance studio, he noticed a person dancing. he was caught in their movements, they looked so beautiful.

jungkook suddenly recognised that face, it was jimin.

jungkook watched him in awe for a bit before noticing the way he was staggering to the left, he heard the other members enter the room behind him.

jungkooks world stilled, because jimins legs had stopped moving, and soon he had collapsed onto the floor, the other members rushed over to him with cries and shrieks of horror.

jungkook tried to move his legs, only to stumble forwards and land on his knees. he managed to drag himself up and rush over the boy he had grown to love.

hang on, what's going on.

everyone was crying hysterically as taehyung pumped his hands over jimins chest, sobbing for his friend. he tried to breathe oxygen into jimins unresponsive lungs.

i can't think, what's happening?

taehyung let out a scream of pure anguish, hugging jimins limp body.

and then it dawned on him.

"JIMIN!" jungkook cried,
trying to reach out of jimins body, but jin slapped his hand away.

"you've caused enough damage." jin said through heavy sobs, crying for the boy that had starved himself to death.

jungkook, you caused this.

you killed your love.

this is all your fault.

a scream and a cry was ripped from jungkook mouth, he clutched his chest and weeped for his lost love.

the love that he had killed with his own words.b