JIKOOK | ONESHOTS

🥀 | the things we lose, and the things we gain.

warning: mild angst.

"ok, concert starting in 10 minutes." namjoon called out to the other 6 members, who gathered around him with broad smiles.

"let's do our best, okay?" namjoon smiled, as everyone started stretching and practising their vocals.

jimin was about to talk to jungkook before his phone rung loudly, he would have declined it if it wasn't his mother being the caller. jimin slipped away from the other members and answered the call.

"hey mum, is everything okay?" jimin asked, his eyes widened at the sound of sniffling from the other end.

"j-jimin, i know it's n-not the right time b-but something's happened."

jimin felt himself grown cold, he breathed in sharply and clenched his fists, mind going to his dad who had been hospitalised for little over a week from a car accident.
"it's fine, you can tell me."

"y-you're f-father p-passed away."

jimin stood still for 10 seconds before realisation slowly started to settle in. before realising he had ended the call and was staring at the ceiling, trying to figure out his emotions.

dads.. passed away?

he's not alive.

my dad, the kindest and most accepting man to exist.

gone?

no.

n-

"jimin, we're going now. hurry up!" said seokjin as he led jimin to the rising stage area. jimin tried to keep his thoughts away, trying to keep the tears away. he breathed in slowly, not liking the way it shook slightly.

"everything ok, jimin?" asked jungkook, looking concerned. jimin flinched and replied with a small, "yeah."

jimins hand was shaking as he gripped the microphone, not going unnoticed by a worried jungkook who could only gently put his palm gently against his cheek before removing it.
jimin leaned into the warmth, closing his eyes and trying to contain the tears threatening to spill out.

"jimin, whatever it is, i'll be here to talk with you." jungkook murmured, but they were forced to separate as they got into their places.

the concert had managed to pass fairly smoothly, any mistake jimin had made was quickly covered up. they had just finished the song before young forever and were taking a small break to talk with the audience, jungkook was quick to walk to jimin who was staring blankly at the crowd with a hopelessly lost face.

jungkook was trying to hold himself back with all his strength at the sight of tears being blinked back in jimins eyes, he could only gently put a hand on his shoulder and smile.

jimin gave jungkook a small smile before it dropped and he shook himself, hearing the music for young forever start. namjoon had started singing, jimin was trying to ignore the lyrics.

yoongi started singing, jimins breathed as the sentence "without a reason, i forcibly act that i am fine"

jungkook was already standing next to jimin who looked so fragile a single puff of breath could make him topple over.

hoseok was on now, his words echoing around the concert.

"trying to comfort myself, i tell myself that the world can't be perfect."

jimin breathed in shakily, jungkook could feel jimin trembling next to him, not even caring about the fans opinions he pulled jimin into a back-hug, walking around the stage with him and not letting go.

my dad.. he's gone.

he's never coming back.

finally the realisation had slammed into his fragile body, the chorus was just starting to be sung as he crouched and covered his mouth, letting endless tears fall
from his eyes as he weakly cried for his loss. army started to scream, and it hurt jimins ears.

they don't care about how i feel, they just think i'm an idol that can happily live through life.

they don't bother caring about the hardships that go on in the background.

they watch me crying, and they scream to
the point i want to scream back at them to stop it.

jimin was sobbing harder, he gasped as hands snaked around him and a
pair of lips gently touched his forehead. jungkook started to stroke his hair and comfort the person he was in love with.

"please, stop screaming." jungkook murmured into his earpiece, "idols have feelings too."

and with that, the place fell completely silent with shock, because perfect, kind jungkook had just been "mean" to army.
nobody wanted their idol crush telling them to shut up, it made people angry. there were boos from the audience,
but nobody in bts could say anything except to keep singing until the song ended.

by then, jimin was standing with jungkooks arm around his waist comfortingly.

"i just need to say something, everyone," jimin said in a bold yet shaky voice, "just before this concert, i found out something that i had been expecting, but it still hurt like hell. now, everyone here has emotions, as do i, bts, and you. nobody can expect someone to stand strong after being mentally impacted."

"death is inevitable, time is constantly marching towards it without stopping. but that doesn't mean you can give up, because there's still life. and life can be so beautiful if you look past the worlds imperfections."

"everyone here, we are all human, and we all have emotions. you can expect us to put on a mask and smile, even through the worst possible times in our lives. but there is still a tired, broken person behind it that needs time to heal. so next time one of us breaks like this, don't just assume that screaming is the best solution. when one of us gets angry and defends us for that reason, don't assume that we hate you."

"someone's even we have to be a little bit selfish, you can't except us to constantly give without feeling exhausted afterwards."

by the time he was finished a few members behind him had started to cry, seokjin holding a proud smile through his glistening tears.

and the audience, after spending several minutes of an eerie silence in the supposedly loud concert, had started a new chant.

"we love you for who you are, bts!"

jimin cracked a smile before he started to heavily sob into jungkook shoulder, who's arms were wrapped round him. soon the lights were being dimmed and bts were leaving the stage, all looking truthfully happy after jimins speech.

not one of them held a forced smile.

once they were off jimin was surrounded by bts and he finally told them what had happened before the concert, the mood had dropped again and suddenly everyone was unhappy.

"your father was such a kind man, why is life so unfair?" taehyung cried out.

jimin felt tugging on his sleeve, he let jungkook lead him into an empty room nearby and pull him into a warm hug.
"jungkook, thank you.. you didn't even know what was gong on and you still comforted me."

jungkook smiled and looked into jimins beautiful dark eyes, a blush flushed over both their cheeks.

"it's because i love you jimin, i would do anything to be there for you, to comfort you." jungkook whispered, brushing a strand of hair behind jimins ear.

the older blushed darker and felt himself leaning in, "i love you too, jungkook, i always have."

their lips met, and they closed their eyes before wrapping their arms around each other and bringing them closer together, burning ecstasy flaming through their bodies.

they pulled apart and put their foreheads against each other, staring with love struck eyes.

"do you want to be my boyfriend, jimin?" jungkook asked, feeling jimins hot breath against his lips.

"yes! of course."

they melted back into a sweet kiss, in love.