and so i sat there, alone in class. waiting for all the students to come in and take a seat. i usually just sit here in the left corner in back of the class, on my own. i never fit in with people. maybe because i'm just not that social type, or maybe because im the most awkward person in the fucking world.
the first few people walk in, and as always they just ignore me. most of them don't even know my name. everybody knows me as that depressed or emo girl that always sits in the back. but that's just who i am.
i see someone standing next to me in the corner of my eye. "hi." i turn my head to the person that is standing on my right. "uh hi?" i say a bit nervous. i've never seen this boy before, he must be new. "is it okay if i sit next to you?" he asks and smiles at me. i don't respond. this must be some kind of joke or something. i watch how he takes a seat next to me and gets his books out of his backbag.
the first few hours have passed and luckely no one said anything rude. i make my way to the cafeteria and i see how everyone looks at me. i look around to make sure they're actually looking at me, and yes they are. i look at this group of 6 girls while they whisper to each other. they look back at me and start laughing. and so it starts. i turn back around and walk back to the corridor.
they were looking at me because i'm ugly, or maybe because i gained a lot of weight. i'm just a useless piece of shit. worthless, no one cares about me. with all kinds of thoughts in my head i can feel my eyes fill up with tears.
i start walking to the toilets, when out of nowhere someone bumbs in to me. "hey watch out where you're going, you could have fell.'" a familiar voice says. i look up and see the boy that sat next to me the 2 hours before lunch. i can feel a tear fall down my cheek. i immediatly look down so the boy that is standing infront of me doesn't see me cry.
"are you crying." he says and looks at me. i shake my head. i don't want him to see me cry, and i don't want him to pity me.
lol this was the first chapter, i know it sucks a bit but hey, i'm working on it. oh and please tell me if i typed something wrong, because my grammar sucks ass. hope you guys like the first chapter though, i love you :)
