that's the first thing that jungkook noticed when she answered his call.
"yerim."
jeon jungkook is a bright and funny person. but now, he is not that jeon jungkook. he's mad, confused, and sad.
"kook-hiccup-kookie?" the drunk girl asked in sweet voice that jungkook's negative vibe could've vanished immediately, if not for the fact that he means serious business.
he tussled his hair in frustration, remembering the post sooyoung posted earlier.
"kim yerim."
he said in a raspy voice. two words, but you can already feel the frustration and desperation. when the drunken girl didn't answer, he continued speaking.
"are you really going away for four months, rim?"
sensing the seriousness of the situation, yerim started to sober.
"yes."
hearing those words from her, jungkook wanted to scream at her. his frustration and desperation for her to stay by his side now gradually increasing.
but he knows it'll just scare her,
and he doesn't want that.
"b-but...what about me, rim?"
his voice cracked, tears starting to glisten his large, brown eyes.
the thought of yerim, his yerim, away from him for four months was another level of pain. after almost seeing each other everyday for the past years, her sudden departure would be like taking away oxygen from his life.
"why does it need to be that long? you didn't tell me it would be that long. i expected you'd only be away for days or a few weeks."
he continued, the desperation now very clear from his voice. a few seconds of silence and she finally replied.
"this is for your own good, kookie. for our own good."
he suddenly felt angry at her words.
good for me?
"what are you talking about? how the heck is you leaving me good for me, yerim?"
he can't help but raise his voice a little.
"this is for our friendship, jungkook. don't worry, when i return, everything will be back to normal."
confused, angry, and desperate. jeon jungkook continues to speak.
"what problem? we don't have a problem, yerim. if there is, then we can fix it together. you don't need to go to a far away place. you only need to stay by my side."
without realizing, his tears were already falling. he can't bear to be apart from yerim. even the thought of it hurts, what more when she actually leaves?
kim yerim is also a mess. in her own room, she sits by the window, drunk, sad, broken-hearted, angry, but still madly in love with jeon jungkook.
"that's the problem, jungkook. i can't stay by your side."
"yes you can, yeri! if you're angry with me, i'll give you space, but stay here in seoul. i won't annoy you for the time being, i'll be a good friend, i'll do everything you want. see, it's that easy..."
jungkook was now rambling everything in his mind to make her stay, tears heavily flowing from his eyes, hands tightly gripping his hair that his veins were clearly showing.
"...just don't leave me."
he ends in a soft voice.
and kim yerim cries on the other side of her phone because that was the most vulnerable voice of jungkook she has ever heard.
but she stays firm with her decisions.
this is for him.
he'll be happy with eunha.
don't be selfish yerim.
she tells herself.
"you don't understand, kook. this is for you. i have to do this."
"what don't i understand, yerim? whatever this is, i don't—"
maybe it was because of the alcohol in her system, mixed with the heavy emotions she has right now that she was able to say the words that she kept hidden in her heart for a long time.
"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU JEON JUNGKOOK!"
jungkook stiffens.
"i love you not as a brother or as a bestfriend. god jungkook, i'm in love with you."
yeri felt her heart be free from a secret she has kept for a long time. but now that he knows, she really needs to leave.
for our friendship.
"...and that's the problem, because i wasn't supposed to fall for you. but i did."
she continues.
"i'll go away and when i'll return, there won't be any of these feelings for you anymore. this is for our friendship, i don't want to ruin it. take good care of eunha and don't do anything stupid until i get back."
"...goodbye jungkook. see you after four months."
and the call ends.
yet jungkook remains frozen.
after a few minutes, he suddenly chuckles. tussling his hair, he lets out a smile and looks at the picture on his nightstand.
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the first time he met yeri at school.
when young jeon jungkook was holding his camera and saw the love of his life.
the day when jeon jungkook fell in love with kim yerim.
when he remembers her words earlier, he scoffs.
as if i'll let you move on kim yerim. now that i know that you feel the same way, i won't let you go now.
end of chapter ————
Sorry if there are any errors or typos, I don't really proofread because I want to publish each chapter instantly. I'll edit it when I have the time. Thank you for reading! 💜
