Addicted

Chapter 5

Harry P.O.V

“Bad timing.” Louis laughed and walked over to Kalandra. He planted a kiss on her lips and wrapped his arm around her shoulder. Zayn walked over to Milan and sat next to her. She cuddled up close to him and Zayn kissed her on the top of the head.

“Call up Liam, Samyy, Niall, and Juliana and let’s have a movie night.” Zayn said. Louis pulled out his phone and started dialing. I scratched my eyebrow and walked down the hall towards the bathroom. I knocked on the door and head a small cry come from the other side.

“I can go get Milan or Kalandra if you need help.” I said through the door.

“I’m uhm fine.” I heard another cry. “I’ll be out in a second.” She said. I rolled my eyes and opened the door. “Seriously?” she looked at me.

“Well, I already saw you out there, so oh well.” She already had pants on, but she seemed to be struggling getting her hands over her head. “Here let me help.” I moved closer grabbing the shirt from her hands. I was about 4 or 5 inches taller than her. I slid the shirt over her head and helped her get her arms through.

“Uhm, thanks.” She was quiet. She started to brush her hair out and I could see the pain on her face. I held my hand out and she sighed. She handed me the brush.

“Don’t hit the braid.” She said.

“I know.” She rolled her eyes as I started to brush her hair out. She definitely wants to be independent. I watched her eyes shut as she grabbed the bridge of her nose and squeezed it. “Are you okay.”

“Yeah, just a massive headache, but I’ll live. I just want to sleep.”

“You have a concussion. You can’t.”

“If I die, I die. Oh well.” I finished brushing her hair and she started to walk out of the bathroom. “I didn’t need your help by the way.”

“It’s okay to need someone, you know.”

“No it’s not.” She said and walked away. I followed her into the living room and she stood away from everyone else. Juliana and Niall had arrived and Niall was begging to watch Finding Nemo. Juliana stood behind him laughing at his eagerness.

“Are Liam and Samyy coming?” I asked. I saw Belle jump behind me. I don’t think she was expecting my voice.

“Nah, they are doing something else.” Louis laughed as he put air quotes around ‘something’. Kalandra hit him in the stomach and Louis laughed even harder. “What?” he joked.

“You’re immature!” Kalandra laughed

“Hey! So are you!” Louis grinned and Kalandra glared at him. Louis kissed her quickly and she messed with his hair. “Don’t touch the Tommo Hair honey.”

“Oh shut up.” She laughed and laid her head back on his chest.

“Sooo about Finding Nemo.” Niall butted in.

“No!” Everyone said at one. Niall frowned and sat on top of Juliana.

“Niall, oh my god, get off.” Juliana laughed.

“Nooooo!” Niall exclaimed and nuzzled into her neck.  Belle cleared her throat behind me. I turned and looked at her. She was scratching her hand again.

“Harry, what do you want to watch?” Niall asked me.

“Actually, I’m going to help Belle stay awake, but I would have chosen Finding Nemo with you Niall.” Niall gave me a big grin and I helped Belle into the kitchen. We sat at the table and I fixed her a cup of coffee. She laid her head on the table and rubbed her eyes.

“Just let me go to bed please.” She asked. I shook my head no. “Then I’ll fall asleep here.”

“And I’ll keep waking you up.”

“You know, life would be so much easier if I went into a coma and died.” She said to herself. I pulled a chair up next to her and handed her the coffee. She could barely keep her eyes open.

“Drink this.”

“Let me sleep.”

“No.” She sighed heavily and took small sips of the coffee. “Tell me what happened?” I asked

“I fell down the stairs at home.”

“No you didn’t.”

“Darn.”

“Stop lying for once and open up to someone.” I said

“Why?”

“Damnit Belle!” I was shocked at my tone. “Answer some of my questions.” I watched as she contemplated answering me.

“Why?”

“Because I can’t get you out of my head! I am constantly worrying about you and I never know if you are okay. I want you to be okay.”

“Why?”

“Can you stop asking why for once and just accept the fact that there is people who care.”

“You only care because you think you need to fix me!” She stood up and slammed her hands against the table. “I was perfectly fine before you came along. And believe me you wouldn’t even consider talking to me if you didn’t think you had some sort of responsibility over me! Pretty boys like you don’t talk to sluts like me! You wanna know how I got those drugs? I had sex with the guy Harry! If we went to the same school you would be just like everyone else. You would call me a freak and a slut! You’re no different than anyone else. I don’t know why you want to help, but stop!” Her words shocked me.

“Then you don’t know me at all.” I whispered. I kept my eyes locked with hers as she started to cry. I stood up and wiped them away.

“The only reason you want to be around me is to fix me. If there was ever a slight chance that you would fall in love with me it’s because you don’t want me to be like this. Newsflash, I’m like this.”

“And I’m going to help you, but let’s say I do fall in love with you. It will be because you are you. Not because I just want to fix you.” I kept my hands on her face.

“Let me go to bed please.” Her words were muffled. I figured she would be fine, so I took her up to Milan’s guest bedroom. She covered herself up with multiple blankets. I told her goodnight and started to walk out of the room. “Harry.” She said quietly. I turned and looked at her. “Please don’t leave yet.” She sounded young and scared. I nodded and walked back over to the bed. She made room so I could sit on the bed next to her. The blankets covered half of her face and a tear that was on her cheek sparkled in the moonlight. She started to scratch her hand again. I took her hands and held them in mine. I started to hum again and I watched her slowly drift asleep. “I know that song.” She mumbled. “That’s Fix You, by Coldplay.” I smiled softly as she fell asleep. Once I figured she was completely asleep I let go of her hands and slipped out of the room. I walked back down to the living room. Louis and Kalandra were passed out as well as Niall, Juliana, and Milan. Zayn looked over at me.

“Why do you want to help her so bad?” Zayn asked. I know he didn’t mean it in a rude way. I shrugged her shoulders. “You seem to care for her as much as I care for Milan.” He looked away and looked down at Milan sleeping on his lap. “Like you would do anything for her.” I pulled out a pillow and blanket from the side closet and laid it across the floor.

“Because I would.” I said and Zayn didn’t reply to that. He nodded his head and pushed Milan’s hair out of her eyes. I let myself drift to sleep and hope that tomorrow would be a better day.