Guiding Light ( Levi x Reader )

3. Touch

ORIGINAL CHAPTER 3 BY heichoo

She felt her lips as she laid in her bed. It was such a bittersweet feeling.
His lips felt so familiar against hers and it was a feeling she longed for, yet it didn't feel the same.
Was it because he was doing it out of bribery?
Either way, she didn't feel as though he meant it. He knew she was his girlfriend, and that his relationship allowed intimacies as such, and that's it. She felt like he didn't know feelings existed in the relationship- as if it was just some kind of job he had to do.
Her heart sunk more and more as she thought deeper about it, so she forced herself to sleep.
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Of course she would dream of it. It occupied her mind for hours before she could even sleep and now it's haunting her in the only place she thought she could escape it.
She grunted, sitting up from her bed and checking the time. It was far too early in the morning, yet she didn't feel sleepy enough to go back to bed.
The cold floor was shining from the purple sky, and she could only somewhat make out the features in her room. There was no use just sitting on her bed, but her nightmares bothered her that she wasn't able to stand up.
Everything was just... different. Despite having Levi back with his old habits, it's like he's completely rid of his feelings for her along with his old memories.
It felt like such a heavy burden to her. She could almost feel all the gray hair start to colour her head.
Pushing herself to get up, she went out into the living room to prepare some food.
She didn't want to look at him, since she felt angry for what he did the night before. Seriously. He's still an asshole. It's like that was the only thing he remembers about himself.
All morning she ignored him or only gave him one-worded answers. She knew it wasn't right to do so since he was just trying to figure out his life, but what he did last night was just worthy of getting ignored.
"Where are you going?"
"Work." She put on her shoes, ready to leave the door.
"Why are you giving me that?" he asked before she could leave.
"Giving you what?" she felt like she just wanted to run off before any more confrontation happens. "I haven't done anything."
"Are you angry because of last night?" he crossed his arms.
She opened the door to leave, hoping to make a last escape.
"I'm still talking to you." he walked closer to her.
"Yeah, okay! I'm mad. Now I have to leave before I get late for work." she stepped out of the door.
"Don't be an idiot. You said you didn't have work last night." he followed her out and held the door open.
"... They just called me to fill in one of the positions. Someone got sick." smart one. She thought.
"And you think I'm going to believe that? I may have lost my memory but I'm not stupid. Stop making excuses."
She stopped and sighed. Levi was too smart to be fooled.
"Come back inside." he led her back in.
She couldn't help but follow, since she couldn't even make up an excuse anymore.
"Why are you acting like such a child?" he shut the door and leaned on the wall.
She stood there, feeling frozen, as if she could not move an inch.
"I'm... not." she looked away.
"Is it because I said I wasn't going to kiss you until you told me about my past or what? Did you not want to kiss me?" he looked straight at her, making her feel as though he towered over her... despite his height.
She couldn't look at him. She felt like she was being stupid now. "Both, it's both. Okay! I just got upset since you think that this relationship is all a joke and I'm just trying to make it easier for you by letting you take it one step at a time." she almost cried.19

He was silent and walked away. He didn't say a word to her, and it hurt her even more. He couldn't even try to apologize.6

She could feel the tears forming on her eyes, but she held it in as much as it stung her throat. It seemed like the one time she let her feelings be known, she felt even stupider. She was better off not having said anything in the first place.

She touched the door handle to leave again just so she could avoid him being so cold to her for the day. For months she wanted to see him again, but she's not even sure how it felt like to have him be his old self anymore. He seemed... More distant.