Friends With Benefits

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

The next morning, I wake up alone. I move out to the main room and see Bishop sitting at the bar, staring into his coffee cup. I move to sit next to him and Chucky places a cup of coffee in front of me. "Bueno dias mi amor." Bishop says. "Good morning baby." I say before kissing him softly. "Are you okay?" I ask. He stands and holds out his hand for me to take. I place my hand in his and he leads me to Templo. Walking inside, he closes the door and moves to his seat, pulling me into his lap. "What is it?" I ask. "I love you." he says. "I love you too but what aren't you telling me?" I ask. "You remember Antonia?" he asks and I nod, remembering him telling me about him and her being a thing years ago. "What about her?" I ask. "She left her wife." he tells me. "Okay." I say, confused. "She called me this morning. Wanting us to meet up." he tells me. I stand and ask "What does she want?" He doesn't look at me but says "Me." I shake my head and say "And you're thinking about going to her." He shakes his head no. "No baby. I'm not but..." he says but I stop him. "Look, go see what she wants. Work things out with her. Bishop we both knew this wouldn't last. We can get a divorce and you can still see the baby any time you want." I say before walking out of Templo and leaving him sitting there.

I walk outside to my car and head home. I move to the bedroom and look at his things all over my room and I start to sob. I can literally feel my heart break. "I'm sorry little one. I'm so sorry." I whisper as I touch my stomach. I am sitting on the floor sobbing. Why can't I be good enough? Why wasn't I good enough?

Back at the clubhouse, Bishop is sitting in Templo with his head in his hands when Taza walks in. "You okay Prez?" he asks. Bishop shakes his head no and Taza sits down. "What's going on Obispo?" he asks. "Antonia called me. Talking about that she left her wife and is filing for divorce and wants us to get back together." Bishop says. "But you're married with a kid on the way." Taza says. "I know. I love Lanie, but..." Bishop says. "But nothing. You married her. She's carrying your child. You can't just..." Taza starts and Bishop stops him. "I'm not leaving Lanie. I told Antonia that. But she's telling me that she knows all of our secrets and thinks she can hold that over our heads if I don't. Just trying to figure out my next step." Bishop says. "What next step? You need to go find your wife and make sure she's okay. She left in a hurry and was pretty upset. You think that kinda stress is good on your kid?" Taza says and Bishop runs his hand down his face. "You're right. Thanks Brother." Bishop says before heading out to his bike and heading home.

Bishop walks into the house and to the bedroom door. I am standing beside the bed, my back to him, with a duffle bag and am folding his clothes and putting them in it. "Packing my things?" he asks. I don't say anything. I just keep packing. He walks over and wraps his arms around my waist and when I try to move away from him, he doesn't let me. "Let me go." I say softly and you can hear the defeat in my voice. "No. You're my wife. You're carrying my kid. I'm not letting you go." he tells me. "Obispo please just get your things and go. Don't make this harder than it has to be." I say and more tears start to fall. He turns me to face him and cups my face with one hand, the other still around my waist. "You're my wife. I love you so fucking much and I'm not leaving you." he tells me. "But..." I start and he says "No buts. Look, she left her wife, wants us to get back together but it's not happening. She thinks she has some things to hold over the club if I don't but she doesn't understand that no matter what she says, she can't do shit to us. It just bothered me that she would even do something like this. She was never like this. But mi amor, I'm not leaving you or our child. I love you with everything in me. Please tell me we'll be okay?" he pleads. I look at him and nod slightly but I'm not letting my walls down again. By now, I know better. He pulls me closer and I let him. "Lay down with me." he says and again I just nod and we move to the bed and lay down together. He pulls me into his arms and I just lay there and let myself go numb.