JJBA Fluff

Forbidden (Caesar x Joseph)

So that was it, huh? We just had to defeat Kars now. I looked beside me to Caesar, who seemed to be thinking deeply about something which I couldn't quite gather. I stared at him as he thought to himself, just admiring him. We became very close during this adventure of ours, and boy do I hope it stays this way. Caesar let out a sigh as he leaned his head onto his hands. He seemed so stressed and deep in thought. I feel like I should ask him about it, but we were just about to fight the ultimate being. Our battle would be long and hard, and when guns were useless against him, I doubt the Speedwagon Foundation would be much help either. After a moment of debate, I decide to ask.

"Caesar, are you okay?" I asked quietly. "You seem... Troubled." Caesar jumped slightly at my voice and looked to me, his eyes locking with mine.  He has the most wonderful eyes, I've never seen any better. He lets out a sigh and rubs the back of his neck.

"Yeah, I'm just a bit nervous, I guess." He responds. I knew that wasn't all, but I wouldn't push him further about it. It was his buissiness, not mine. I have my own things to worry about anyway, like how we were going to defeat Kars. It was still bugging me though. I was his best friend, he shouldn't be afraid to tell me anything!

...Why does 'best friend' seem to upset me? That's what we are, right?

"You can talk to me. I know you aren't just nervous about Kars." I say to him as I brushed off my odd feelings. He again looks to me, his eyes full of sadness. I won't even try to pull anything; I wanted him to tell me on his own. He looks as if he is about to say something, but he sighs and turns back forward, giving me not so subtle glances every now and then.

"Joseph, you know what these pink marks mean, right?" He asks, "You know why they branded me?" I stared at him in slight confusion. I hadn't even stopped to think about that before. Now that I think about it, isn't that something the Nazi's did to people who were found to be homosexual? But that wouldn't make sense, he is basically obsessed with women.

"Doesn't that mean... Why didn't you tell me? Its not like I care." I respond. Did he honestly think I would hate him? There was no way I could hate him! Especially not with those big and beautiful eyes, or his amazing smile... No, I should stop thinking like that. I'm not... Right?

"I didn't think it was important... Well... Until now." He says as he tries to explain himself. "I don't want to die with any secrets." I give him a sad look. He thought he might die? That's just nonsense, isn't it? There was no way he could die now! We were so close! I chuckle and nudge him.

"You're not going to die, don't be so grim!" I sighed and leaned slightly on him. "You really crack me up." He chuckled lightly and looked away from me, seemingly hiding his face from veiw. I leaned forward and tried to look it him in an attempt to cheer him up, which results in him further covering his face. "Come on Caesarino, let me see you smile." I say with a slight chuckle. I sighs and looks to me, a wide smile on his face, astonished by slightly blushed cheeks. Well that's odd.

"Fine, you got me." He laughs softly and looks to me, his eyes sparkling. I couldn't help but smile back and stare. Hid smile is short lived as we stare to eachother. I enjoyed it, but I had to go and ruin it.

"So, what are you going to do after all of this?" I ask curiously. We both sort of look away from eachother. I feel my face heat up slightly in embarrassment. How could I be so awkward? Its not like I like him or anything! Although.... Maybe...

"Well, I don't really know. Its not as if I have much to go back to." He says sadly. I wrap my arm around his shoulders, feeling my stomach take a flip.

"Well, you'll always have me, you little shit." I chuckles as my face flused at the contact. I tried to will myself to stop, but it only proved to be less and less controllable the more I tried.