Myungjin Oneshots Collection

Midnight tears

*Astro as Astro members.

- 2.57 a.m -

MJ jolts awake from his deep slumber with heavy breath. He tried to slow down his breathing but it came off useless. He reach up to his cheeks and realize there were tears. Then he realizes.

'here it goes again'

The feeling is here again. The feeling of wanting to cry your eyes out. The feeling when your mind couldn't take it anymore and needs to let it out. Upon realizing, MJ stood up from his bed with one hand on his mouth to prevent any sound, not wanting to wake up his roommates.

MJ settled down in the kitchen. He sits at the table burying his face into his arms and crying his eyes out. His sobbing were muffled by his cloth but its there.

This occurrence rarely happens. MJ always did so well in hiding it. One of the ways is this. Waking up in the middle of the night where every one of his members is in deep sleep not caring about anything that happens.

In that way, MJ feels like he can let out everything that was burried deep inside his heart. Sure, he is the happy virus of their group. But that doesn't mean he doesn't have any worries, insecurities, pressure, etc. He does but he doesn't shows it to anyone. Not even their leader.

Being the eldest, he always feels like he should be able to handle himself and not complaining about anything. Sometimes Jinjin did asked him if he's truly okay and said that he can always go to the younger if he's not. But MJ always laugh it off and saying that he's fine then continue being the crazy person he is.

The truth is MJ did not want anybody to worry about him as it will makes him feel more upset about himself.

So he always bottled up his feelings. And when the time comes, he make sure to distance himself without anyone noticing and let it out.

This time,its in the middle of the night and he kinds of grateful for it as the past month was really hard on him actually. Now as he know that nobody is watching, he stop holding back and let the tears fall as much as he wants, sobbing into his arms.

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Jinjin woke up in the middle of the night due to nature calling. Without fully conscious, he speed walk out of his bedroom to the bathroom and do his deed.

After he's done, he walk slowly to his room suddenly feeling sober and not so sleepy. He was about to enter his room when he heard a whimper.

He felt shiver ran down his spine. He was about to feel scared but when he heard it clearly, its not the eerie kind of whimpers. Instead, it sound so real that it pulls Jinjin from his door.

Jinjin walk towards where the sound came from and found himself at the entrance of their dorm kitchen.

There he sees a familiar figure with their shoulder shaking and the sobs that can be heard clearly but muffled. The honey coloured hair that seems a bit out of place like he just woke up. Jinjin's heart break to pieces as he watch his hyung crying and sobbing like there's no end.

"MJ hyung..."

The words startled the older as he quickly glance at the entrance and wipe his eyes furiously with his sleeves.

"Jinjin-ah. Did I wake you up?"

MJ stand up and face the younger, hands fastly wipe the stray tears that manage to slip out of his eyes as he hold back his cry. His voice cracked when he talked. His eyes were red and puffy. His face was flushed maybe due to the fact that it was buried in his arms for too long.

Jinjin walk and stand right in front of his hyung, analyzing his face. He had never seen his hyung looking so sad and fragile as if he holds him too hard he will shatter. He doesn't even remember seeing any tears in MJ's eyes before.

"What's wrong hyung?" Jinjin asked softly not making any skin contact as he's giving space for the older to make a move.

"Its nothing Jin-ah. Go back to sleep" MJ nod his head towards their bedroom direction with a little smile that Jinjin knew he was faking it.

"You know you can tell me anything right?" Jinjin try again slowly.

MJ keep quiet the whole time, not saying anything. He averted his gaze from Jinjin to the floor, not daring to have any eye contact with the younger.

Jinjin took a step closer and slowly wrapped his arms around the other. One of his hands caressed MJ's hair while the other hand embraced his back tightly. He let MJ's head fall onto his shoulder.

The vocalist stood stiff in his position still holding back his leftover tears.

"Myungjun-"

That's it. Jinjin using his real name with the softest voice the younger ever used manage to pull the last string from Myungjun's heart. He finally let go whatever force he used to hold back and let his tears falls freely,sobbing onto his member's shirt.

"....hyung" Jinjin sigh as he continues to stroke the other's hair.

Myungjun wrapped his arms around Jinjin's waist. Hugging it and clenched a fistful of the leader's shirt,crying hard. He want to explain why he was crying but nothing came out from his mouth other than sobs and whimpers.

After a few minutes, the crying stop but the position stay the same. Both of them doesn't want to let go of the other's warmth. Silence embraced their moments for a while. When it feels too long, Jinjin decide to speak as his legs were ready to pass out.

"Hyung?"

He waited for a response but got nothing.

"Hyung?" He tried again.

Still no response. He pulls back a little only to see his hyung sleeping soundly. He chuckled slowly staring at the latter's cute flushed face from all the crying.

He tried to pull apart so that he can carry MJ bridal style but the older just tighten his grip around his waist so he ends up holding MJ's thigh wrapping it around his waist as well.

He walk towards his room and to his bed. He sits on his bed still carrying MJ so it looks like the older is straddling him.

He slowly lay on his back and let MJ's head rest on his chest,carefully not to wake the older. MJ groan and moves a little. Jinjin froze from his movements for a bit letting the older settled in. Finally the latter stop moving so Jinjin continue and finally let himself sleep at last.