Her Lover

Chapter 3: I want you back

Cate's POV
Naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Why do I keep on hurting her? Why do I keep on punishing her? Sa loob ng labing dalawang taon sya lang ang taong minahal ko. I have never imagine myself being inlove with someone else. I have no other dreams beside from being with her. To be together, always. But those dreams shuttered from the day she betrayed me. My heart was so broken I can't even find the forgiveness in my heart. Everytime I think about it hindi ko mapigilang mainis, magalit at saktan sya.

I did my best to hurt her back, to make her feel what I felt that night. Sa loob ng dalawang taon matapos naming maghiwalay wala akong ginawa kundi ang gantihan sya. She never ever complaint not until now. I feel so frustrated. What if magsawa na sya? What if I took everything too far? The one thing I know is I don't wanna lose her again. That's why I told her I still love her. I was hoping that she love me too. Pero wala akong matanggap sa kanyang response after kong sabihin yun.

After that she became distant. I don't know why but she keep on pushing me to Amanda. She gave the New York project to us, it wasn't a joke. It is the company's biggest project. It will take months or even a year bago matapos. I was hoping for us to do it together like we used to. I didn't disagree when she gave the project I know Amanda is capable enough to be my partner sana lang ay hindi nya ito ginagawa para iwasan ako.

I can't bring myself to talk to her. I miss her so much.

"A penny for your thoughts?" Napalingon naman ako sa nagsalita. She removed her eyeglasses and look at me. She's sitting next to me. We were having a brainstorming about the New York Project report next week. Pupunta kasi ang investor and for some reason pupunta rin ang Daddy ni Hannah. Hindi naman  ako kinakabahan, I always perform my best whenever I have to report. I once did a report in front of Mr. Emsworth before and I didn't feel intimidated at all, he was impressed at my performance. That's when his son wasn't able to do the job that's why I was asked by Hannah to do it. Even if she wanted to do it herself, ayaw nya dahil naroon daw ang mga kapatid nya. The only reason she did it was all because of Hannah. Sa totoo lang ayaw nya sa pamilya ni Hannah. Hindi nya nga alam kung pamilya ba talaga ang turing nila kay Hannah.

Naisip nyang hindi basta-basta ang investor nila. He must be a big time and very important person dahil maging si Mr. Emsworth at kapatid ni Hannah na si Leo ay dadating.

"You were spacing out. Wanna rest for a while?" Umiling naman ako.

"I'm sorry, uhm I'm just a bit tired but I'm fine. How about you?" She smiled. I don't know why but it kinda made my heart skip a beat. Umubo naman ako ng mahina. "We can have a lunch outside if you—want." I was hesitating because I'm not sure kung tama bang yayain ko syang kumain. It was really Hannah who I wanted to invite but it's impossible given our situation. Damn. Ano bang iniisip nya? It's wrong.

"Oh wow, it's the first time you invited me out on a lunch." Sabi nya. Pinatong nya ang mga papeles sa lamesa. Nagulat ako ng hawakan nya ang isang kamay ko. "Let's go! I'm starving." Hindi na ako nakapagsalita dahil hinila na nya ako.People are looking at us. Naiilang ako, I don't like the way they look at us. Napayuko nalang ako samantalang para namang wala lang ito kay Amanda. She's smiling from ear to ear.

Noong nasa elevator na kami nakasalubong namin si Hannah mukhang papaalis din ito. Fuck. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero humigpit lalo ang hawak ni Amanda sa kamay ko. I look at her. What the hell is she doing? She look at our hands before she look at me. She gave us a sweet smile. "Oh, hello there. Heading somewhere?" She asked Amanda.

Amanda look at me and smiled. "Yes. We're having a lunch date." Halos manlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi nya. What the hell? Lunch date? It was just a regular lunch with a workmate. Bakas rin ang pagkagulat sa mga mukha ni Hannah pero agad din itong nakabawi. "Oh, I see." Umubo ako ng mahina. "I guess you haven't had your lunch yet. Wanna join?" She manage to ask Hannah. God she just made everything even more awkward. Ano bang ginagawa nya?