i don't deserve you

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by eunwoot

by eunwoot

WARNING: BaekHan-smut/romance (18+)

Another boyxboy smut... I'm sorry, I can't help it. Enjoy.

In Baekhyun's head was a mess as he walked down the dark streets full of people. Small drops of rain were wetting his hair and coat. 'I feel lonely and I miss you' those words echoed in his head since his phone call with Luhan. He called Baekhyun to come over and to watch movies with him. Of course Baekhyun said yes. He loved Luhan so much. In past three years he was the only joy of his life. But his work was keeping him from seeing his lover. Doing a lot of business trips and overtime hours kept a roof under his head and Luhan knew that. That's why he kept silent and kept waiting for him every night. Baekhyun felt useless, he felt as he was a burden to Luhan, as he didn't deserve someone like that boy he loved so much.

Three loud knocks on the front door of Luhan's apartment echoed down the long hallway of a building in the center of Gangnam. Baekhyun heard hurried thuds on the other side, after what the door opened and a cheerful Luhan appeared with a huge smile on his face. He quickly threw his arms around Baekhyun's neck, capturing him in a long and tight hug.

"I missed you." Luhan mumbled between the strands of Baekhyun's hair, inhaling the sweet and intoxicating smell of his cologne he missed so much. "I missed you too baby." Baekhyun mumbled with a smile. He was happy. He finally held Luhan in his arms again.

"Come in." Luhan broke the hug, leading Baekhyun in and locking the doors after. "I'm gonna go grab some popcorn and drinks. You can choose a movie." Luhan pecked Baekhyun's lips before disappearing into the kitchen. Baekhyun took of his coat and threw himself on the couch, taking a deep breath as looking around the apartment. He missed this place. The memories of all the nights they spent together rushed before his eyes. All the cuddling and kisses, all the movies watched from that couch.. Guilt rushed back into him.

"Hey. What's wrong with you? You seem so distant." Luhan suddenly popped out of nowhere with a bowl of popcorn and two cans of coke in his hands. "I-I'm fine.. Don't worry." Baekhyun mumbled. Luhan put everything on the small table in front. "Come on. I know you better than you think." he sat down beside Baekhyun, wrapping his arms around the younger's neck. "So?" Luhan slowly pecked Baekhyun's cheek, going down his neck. Baekhyun shivered, caressing Luhan's tight. "I-It's.." a sudden bite onto his neck interrupted him, a silent moan slipping his lips.

"Baek.. I can't explain how much I've missed you." Luhan captured him into a hug. "I'm sorry.." Baekhyun whispered into Luhan's ear. "Why?" "Because I'm an awful boyfriend. I'm useless and I don't deserve.." he was interrupted by a sudden kiss. It was so passionate, full of love. Luhan's fingers met with soft strands of Baekhyun's hair, bringing him closer and deepening the kiss.

"Don't you ever say you're useless or that you don't deserve me. I don't deserve you, an amazing and lovely person who I will always love. Remember that." Luhan smiled sweetly, making Baekhyun's eyes water up a bit. "I love you." Baekhyun whispered. "Show me." Baekhyun shivered at his lover's seductive voice, instantly crashing his lips against Luhan's, pinning him down on the couch.

Luhan's hands were pinned above his head as Baekhyun was kissing and biting onto his neck. "Your shirt." Luhan ordered, at what Baekhyun instantly took of his shirt, revealing his milky skin that Luhan adorned. "You're so beautiful." Luhan said, picking himself up a bit so that Baekhyun was now sitting in his lap. Baekhyun moaned at the feeling of Luhan's cold hands against his bare back, as Luhan was giving butterfly kisses all over his neck. Luhan took off his shirt, throwing it somewhere on the floor randomly. Baekhyun stared grinding his hips against Luhan's, silently moaning as their skins touched. It was like magic that Baekhyun would forget everything when he's with Luhan. All the stress would just disappear, only pure love and happiness would be left.

"You wanna sit on me?" Luhan asked, his breath unsteady. Baekhyun blushed at the question, making Luhan chuckle. "Aww even in the dark I can see you blush" Luhan said before leaning in and giving a sweet kiss to Baekhyun's lips. "Come on." Baekhyun stood up, Luhan following him. In a second, they were both naked. Luhan sat back on the couch as Baekhyun sat in his lap. "I love you so much, you know?" Luhan said, pulling Baekhyun closer to his body. Baekhyun closed his eyes at the feeling of closeness and Luhan's hands touching and kissing every part of his body. "You wanna suck my fingers?" "No, I can't wait any longer. I need you." Baekhyun breathed, wrapping his hands around Luhan's neck. "Okay baby" Luhan kissed his lover's cheek before lifting him up a bit. "You ready?" Luhan asked. Baekhyun nodded as he felt Luhan's tip against his entrance. Luhan gave a deep and passionate kiss to Baekhyun before slowly putting him down and entering him. Baekhyun gasped at the feeling and pain, pulling himself closer to Luhan. "Move" Baekhyun ordered when he adjusted. Luhan kissed all over Baekhyun's face and neck, trying to ease the pain as he slowly moved in and out of him. "L-Luhan.. Faster" Baekhyun breathed desperately, moving up and down, trying to meet Luhan's trusts. Luhan tightened his grip around Baekhyun's waist as he went harder and faster than before, moaning into Baekhyun's ear, making the younger grip at Luhan's hair harder.

"Ahh.. Yes.." Baekhyun moaned, hiding his redden face in Luhan's hair. Luhan squeezed his butt, slamming hard into him as he felt he's coming closer.

"Baby.. Ahh... I'm close!" Baekhyun nearly screamed at Luhan's ear as he hit that special spot. "Me too.." Luhan moaned, licking onto Baekhyun's neck.

"Yes.. Yes.. YES! Ahhh" Baekhyun screamed as he came all over his and Luhan's belly, his body shaking as Luhan still slammed in and out of him. "God Baekkie, I love you so much" Luhan's breathing was unstable as he tightly held Baekhyun's still shaky body in his embrace. "I love you too, I'll always love you. And I'm sorry about everything." Baekhyun sweetly kissed his lover, resting his head on Luhan's shoulder. "Never leave me, okay? Promise me." Baekhyun said. "Okay, I promise."

I always had this special connection with BaekHan and I always wondered, why the hell aren't people going crazy over them? I mean, aren't they a perfect couple? At least I think so.

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed. Vote, comment, share!

With love, HarukoTenno