2130 [OG]

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it's been awhile,
we've been talked for months now,
and for months you keep looking,
like i am something fragile that need extra care,
i hate when people look at me like that,
but you- i have a soft spots for you,
ridiculous yet the truth.
'i still don't know what's your name¿'
i let a bit chuckle,
'ah mian. kiseu',
you just nod and we become silent again.

'i've been always wondering what's it feels like to have everyone likes us? i mean for people like me. you don't have to put any extra effort but still people will always look at you. you know, after living this kind of life awhile, i think i have no interest to satisfy people with my behavior. i should listen to myself years ago, but i'm a coward haha. ah i talked a lot today, forgive me'

his eyebrows looks like it will come together,
he take my hands and squeeze it tight,
'you never talk about you since we knew each other. is everything alright? you can always share with me you know? it isn't fair if only you lend your ears to me but i didn't do the same'

you are kind,, very kind. but why people hate you?

i shake my head to say i'm okay,
and you noticed my wrist again,
but this time i'm not fast enough to pull my hand,
and your beautiful eyes full with tears.

'why? why you did this? i thought you are okay when you listened to my problem, but you aren't. oh my god what have i done. i should ask you if you are okay. i should check on you. did you suffer so much? i'm sorry i'm sorry'
my heart shattered to millions of pieces,
hearing you cry make me weak,
don't cry for someone like me,
i'm not worth your every tears.

you hug me.
i never feel this calm.
you give me strength.

but i'm sorry, we could meet at the next life. this isn't mine from start. you should be happy.