2130 [OG]

8

after a lot of argument,
you let me go home,
is it home? i don't think so.
i look at the calendar,
oh it's time.

we met,
after you suddenly disappeared,
i thought you hate me already,
you said sorry,
i said don't need to,
but you insisted,

'i know you knew that i'm not a local here right? so uh i need to go back to my country' i said

you didn't say anything,
i just thought that maybe you are happy,
finally you don't need to meet me after this,
you can be free.

'when will you come back here?'
i sense sadness in your voice,
but impossible right?
why you need to be sad

'molla, give and take about 3 years? i need to takecare things in my hometown'

you just nodded,
is it the truth?
did i need to takecare things?
or i just want to run from you?
so i can leave this world
without worrying about you.

'promise me, when you get there, go to psychiatrist, do the therapy, i need you to have a normal life, not like this. do something that can make you happy, don't ever think anything negative, i always support you no matter what' ow i hear your voice trembling.

'i don't know, i don't have anything that i like to do beside cutting my hand, and everything about me are negative so how supposedly i need to think positive? nah don't worry about me. you need to worry about yourself first. so how with your hyungs and group?'

'stop saying that kiseu, you know that i care about you. just please takecare of yourself or else i will hunt you down and keep an eyes on you. let's say they are getting better with me these days. and we are doing great'

'haha nae nae not a promise but i will try' i see you smile. sweet smile.

'i know this sounds sensitive, but can i know what your problem is?' i didn't expect to hear that question from you.

'well you will know later, but not now' i tried to sound confident.

but i know you never trust me.
because,
i never keep my words.