"You have to tell him you like him" Jongho started, "This is clearly not good for you.. It's tearing you apart".
It had been a few, long, stressful months since Yunho had come to accept his feelings for his friend. It ached him, his whole body hurt from the thought of it. How could he tell Mingi how he felt when it was clear that the younger boy was straight? He wasn't ready to lose his friend to a stupid emotion, and he was surely not ready to even say how much he loved the red-haired boy out loud. Just saying the words made him want to cry.
"I can't. That's it. If he somehow has feelings for me, I will wait for him to come to me."
Jongho didn't argue with his beloved friend, so they momentarily sat in silence.
"Then what are you going to do?"
"I don't know."
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MINGI
The way it made him feel, to be dumped by someone he cared about, hurt like hell.
It stung.
For just a moment, he felt that he had lost all hope. That was until Yunho entered his life.
He hadn't felt a connection like this to a friend in what felt like forever. The two shared every last braincell they had, which made it easy for them to be in each other's company. Mingi was soft and emotional, someone who needed constant attention, and Yunho was able to give it to him. He loved being physically close to people, he craved the feeling, and he felt fulfilled with his older friend. They had shared everything for the time they have been together, from clothes to food to emotions. From hugs, to cuddles, to even a kiss.
The kiss.
The shorter boy wasn't expecting it to happen, and he wasn't ready for it either. The way the two were casually sitting in the bathroom, Yunho's thighs practically straddling his lap. The way their foreheads leaned against each other as they shared warm laughter. It had felt like a blink to him, the feeling of the older boy's warm lips against his. It caught him off guard, he had never kissed another boy before. He didn't hate it, but it felt.. strange. For his whole life he never would have imagined kissing another boy, but here he was.. completely shocking himself.
His older friend seemed anxious about it, which was understandable. Mingi didn't want him to feel bad though, it was just a friendly kiss after all. What Yunho didn't know was that Mingi was stressing about it too. It's not that he felt that liking another boy was wrong, he had just never saw himself doing it. He was just simply confused. Being in another relationship at this time wasn't what was stressing him, but the looming feeling of his whole identity crumbling on top of him. Mingi was okay with kissing Yunho, and that, for him, was enough to make his thoughts swirl out of control.
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The red haired boy lied awake in his apartment. He couldn't sleep. He wanted to ignore and push away his confusing emotions, so that's what he did.
I don't like guys, I don't. It's that easy. I've liked girls all my life, why would I just now find out that I'm in to boys?
For now, the boy had convinced himself that it was nothing to worry about. He knew who he was, and nobody was going to change him, not even Yunho.
Sorry this is a shit filler chapter but I felt like adding something. I don't like where this story is going and I lack all motivation cause my writing suCKS but whatever it's fiNe
I'll just repress my feelings like Mingi is 🤡🤡
Anyway I'm probably going to be more laid-back with how I write this from now on
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Among The Stars || Yungi
FanfictionJung Yunho has run solo for most of his life, only keeping a few people close to him. That changes when he meets Song Mingi in his self-owned cafe. The two instantly click, but Yunho now has to face the feelings he develops for the younger boy. "𝒩�...
