l̑̈ȋ̈ȃ̈ȓ̈ | jingyeom

part 3

i quietly stepped into jinyoung and i house. my heart was beating, i felt like i wanted to cry again, but no. i needed answers. i took off my shoes and jacket, and with a heavy heart walked into the living room. and that's where i saw him. even from a distance he was still a beauty, but this isn't the time to think about this. i walk forward to let him see me and when he makes eye contact with me all my confidence goes down. i feel tears wanting to brim, but then i remember jackson. he would be disappointed.

jinyoung is the first to say something. "i missed you" i just stared. do i get mad or sad?

"i mis- actually if you missed me you would've been home last night." i said deciding to be angry. "yo-you would have answered my calls." i failed. I'll always fail. I'll always be a cry baby.

"baby boy don't cry, i was just hanging out with jaebeom. do i need to tell you that?"

"Y- YES I WAS WORRIED." I said with a shaky voice. "you could have at least answered my calls, you could have texted me back. i needed you yesterday, and do you remember why? YESTERDAY WAS THE 10TH ANNIVERSARY MY PARENTS DIE AND MY OWN BOYFRIEND WASN'T WITH ME? D- do you even love me anymore?" that was when i broke. i couldn't stop crying. thinking about everything that happened. i just couldn't do anything about it. "i guess im always meant to be alone. just a lonely person."

jinyoung immediately went to go hug me, but i didn't accept it. "gyeom baby of course i still love you, you're the love of my life and my phone was dead so i couldn't respon-"

"stop lying." i interrupted.

and that's when i knew. i messed up.

"SO IM LYING HUH? DO YOU EVEN TRUST ME? AND WHAT IF I WAS LYING ALL YOU DO IS CRY. YOU'RE LUCKY THAT IM EVEN WITH YOU. DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY HOT GUYS I DECLINED TO A DATE FOR YOU? TOO MANY! I WAS ONLY HERE FOR YOU BECAUSE YOUR PARENT DIED SO-"

that's when jinyoung realized. i passed out.