l̑̈ȋ̈ȃ̈ȓ̈ | jingyeom

part 4

jinyoung pov

what did I do. that's all I was repeating.
i felt disappointed at myself. i really did hurt him.

at the moment im staring at yugyeom with a broken heart. he's laying down on our bed, heavily breathing. dried up tears on his beautiful face. how could I hurt such a thing? i began to stroke his beautiful pale face. my fingers trail to his lips. his beautiful light pink lips. i bring my face closer to yugyeoms. our nose touch each other's, as I place our lips together. oh how I loved those soft lips of his. i pull back and decide to let him sleep. i know he would be uncomfortable with me sleeping next to him so I moved to the guest room.

i stared at the room for a little bit. "FUCK" i shouted, throwing my stuff onto the bed. how could I mess up this badly. i needed a drink. yeah that's what i needed.

i decide not to get dress and just keep wearing what I was wearing before. i go into the car and drive to the club. i'd decided not to talk to anyone and not even mention anything to anyone.

i pull up at the club and with no hesitation, i enter. i quickly go where the bartender is and tell him to bring me a drink, any recommendations. i was just too annoyed with myself to talk.

"hard night huh." a random voice from the left of me says. i dont reply. "i could make your night better." i turn to the side as he winks at me. i scoff and just take a sip of the drink the bartender gave me.

"so i see." why is he still talking to me? he whispers in my ear. "you're the quiet type hm." he puts my hand on my thigh.

i chug the rest of my drink and stand up fast so he could tip over. yes the planned work but he grabbed onto my arm. "and a feisty one, just my type."

"leave me alone, im taken." i pull his hand away from my arm. "and nobody would want a man like you." yes i have to admit he is hot, but nobody is perfect as gyeom, my baby.

as he was about to talk to me again, I quickly go outside and into my car. i just really need to sleep and dream that everything would be fine.