My Secret [Completed]

Safe Haven

Colby's POV

I head inside.

"Hey Colbs," Jake says. He sees the look on my face, "Are you okay?"

"I- About earlier. Do you know about me and Sam?"

"Look, I noticed some things. But I won't pressure you to talk if you aren't ready."

Trigger warning: panic attack

Crap, he noticed. I can't, I don't.

My breathing picks up and my vision blurs. I hear Jake say something but I don't register it. Eventually, Sam's muddled voice reaches me through the panic.

"Colbs, you okay?"

"I think I made him panic," Jake says.

"Colbs, it's okay- I'm here."

He wraps his arms around me and rubs my back as he leads me to the couch. We sit down on the couch and he wraps his arms around me. He continues to rub my back until I calm down.

panic attack over

"Colby, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you," Jake says.

"It's-s okay. I just, I'm worried about being judged. That's why I panicked," I say.

"I would never judge you. I care about you, just the way you are," Jake says.

"Thanks, Jake."

"Of course man, whenever you're ready," Jake says.

"Thank you, Jake," Sam says.

Jake leaves me and Sam to talk.

"I'm sorry Sam. I know you must want to go public but I'm just not ready."

"Hey, it's okay. We can start with Jake and Corey if that's easier," Sam says.

"Maybe, yeah. Do we tell them or?" I ask.

"Well, what do you want to do?" He asks.

"I just want to be normal with you, like a normal couple, in this house. I want this to be our safe haven," I say.

"Then let's do that," he says, kissing me.

I kiss him back and he deepens the kiss. I pull away though, not wanting to hurt him.

"I'm okay Colby. Just kiss me," he says.

I kiss him and I hear from behind us "Get a room!" Corey yells, chuckling. We break apart and stare at Corey.

"Are you guys together?

Sam looks at me, letting me be the one to tell him if I want to.

"Yes, we are."

"That's great!" Corey says.

"You-u think so?" I ask.

"Yes, I do. I'm glad you're happy. Just don't be too sappy," He says, chuckling a little.

"No promises," Sam says, chucking too and wrapping an arm around me.

I laugh too and snuggle up to Sam who puts a movie on. Corey sits down to watch the movie with us. Jake comes down to join us and I pause the movie.

"Are you two together?" Jake asks. I nod and he says, "Cool."

I play the movie, smiling. We all watch the movie in comfortable silence and I relax into Sam's arms, finally feeling at ease with everything. Sam senses my relaxation and smiles down at me.

Sam's POV

He whispers in my ear, "Are you feeling better?"

I whisper back, "I'm happy."

"Good," he whispers, kissing my cheek.

Corey leaves the room after the movie ends and goes to the kitchen to make dinner. Jake stands up to go help Corey, leaving Colby and I alone.

"I'm so glad they know. I'm relieved. I feel like I can be myself," Colby says.

"I'm happy," I say.

"Me too."

He kisses me first this time and it gets heated very fast.

"Maybe we should go to my room," he says, winking.

We stumble down the hallway, kissing. He opens the door to his room. He lays me down on the bed gently and turns to lock the door. He lays down beside me and kisses me again. The kiss deepens and his hands run down my body. I moan wanting more of him. He smirks and reaches for my growing boner. He strokes me as I moan into the kiss.

"Take my pants off, please. I want to feel you," I moan out.

He removes my pants and boxers at once. He wraps his hand around my dick.

"Colby, please-e."

He stops at once. "What's wrong?" I ask.

"I don't want to hurt you."

"Please, I need more."

He moves his lips down to my throbbing member and takes me in his mouth. I grip his sheets as he continues to suck me off. I moan, feeling my climax coming.

"Colbs, I'm-"

He pulls off me and strokes me until I come. He falls back on his bed. I smirk, looking down at his boner.

"Your turn," I say.

I stick my hand in his boxers, rubbing his boner up and down. He groans, gripping the sheets.

"Oh, Sammy." He comes all over my hand and in his boxers. I remove my hand from his pants. He stands up and takes off his pants and underwear. He grabs a washcloth from his bathroom and cleans us up. He helps me get dressed in some clean clothes before getting dressed. He helps me stand up.