Perhaps this is Love

Chapter 28: Can't Move On

Yujin's POV

Another day at school and the class just ends, Wonyoung and I are now walking towards the parking lot and when we are near at my car Minju suddenly approach us

"Yujin....c-can we talk? Please" She said

"About what?" I said coldly

"I want to explain everything to you"

"I'm sorry but I don't have time for your stupid explanations" I said and I saw her tears falling and I feel a little pain stinging in my heart. Why am I feeling like this?

"Please Yujin just hear me out" she said and she's crying, I feel like there's a lump in my throat

"I don't want to listen to it, just go away Minju!" I tightened the grip on Wonyoung's hand

"Please Yujin" she said as she held my wrist but I shove her away strongly which made her sway back and made her lose her balance but gladly someone catch her

"Minju are you okay?" The girl ask her and Minju just nod her head

"I-I'm okay, I just wanna talk to her"

"If she don't wanna talk to you then don't, let's go" the girl said

"But Chaewon..."

"Let's go Min!" that Chaewon said I don't know why but I can feel some pain when I saw how that Chaewon wrap her arm around Minju.

"Let's go" I said to Wonyoung and I open the door for her and I went to the driver's seat and I start the engine and we drive away.

The whole ride was silent it wasn't awkward it's just pure silence maybe because of what happened earlier.

After a few minutes we arrived at her apartment but before I could open the door Wonyoung speaks

"Yujin..."

"Hmm?

"Why did you do that?" What does she mean?

"Did what?"

"Aren't you being too harsh on her?"

"I just don't wanna talk to her okay"

"You don't wanna talk to her? Or you are afraid to talk to her?" Am I? I was quite taken aback at Wonyoung's statement that I couldn't speak so I just look outside the window

"Yujin, I know you are just afraid to talk to her cause you think that if you do, all the pain will comeback and you are afraid that you might look weak in front of her" she held my chin and made me look at her. I let out a deep sigh and held her hand that's caressing my cheek, I love the warmth that she's giving me, it makes me calm.

"Maybe you're right, I'm just afraid the if I talk to her I will feel the pain that I felt before and I will break down, I'm just not yet ready to face her, it's still painful"

"Take your time, until you are ready and if you're ready then you can face her and listen to her explanations so that all the pain and anger will vanish and you will be able to forgive her, and also I can see how she's hurting too but don't rush okay" Wonyoung really understands me well and I realize how I'm lucky to have her, she made fall for her even more.

"Yeah you're right, thank you for enlightening me"

And she gave me a peck on my lips that made me smile.

"Can I sleep over again here? I feel lonely in my house" I said as I pout

"Sure love let's get inside" she said as she pinch my cheek

As soon as we get inside I sit on her couch, I don't know why but I like being here on her apartment it's not that big but I just feel so comfortable

"Love go change you're clothes just choose anything on my closet" Wonyoung said as she sat beside me, she's already wearing her comfy clothes

"Okay love" I said as I went to her room and change my clothes

Chaewon's POV

We are now driving to Minju's condo, and she's here at the passenger seat crying, fuck it I hate seeing her crying like this.

"Chaewon..."

"Hmm?"

"I want to go to the bar"

"No Min"

"Please Chae" she said as she held my hand and when I look at her, her eyes are puffy and she's looking at me with puppy eyes, shit how can I say no

"Fine" I said as I let out a deep sigh

We are now here at the bar counter, there are loud music and drunk people dancing everywhere

"One Devil Springs Vodka please" what the fuck? That's too strong for her

"Min that's too strong, you can't handle it"

"That's right ma'am, it has 80% alcohol" the bartender said

"I don't care just give me that fucking vodka!" Minju said as she slam the countertop, gosh she's so stubborn

"O-okay" the bartender stutters and he gave the bottle of vodka that Minju wants "here's your Devil Springs Vodka ma'am" and Minju didn't waste a time started drinking it

"How about you ma'am, what's yours?" The bartender asked me

"No, I'm fine just give me orange juice" I said. I don't want to drink alcohol, I need to take care of Min

It's more than an hour and Minju already consumed more than half of the bottle

"Why?" She suddenly speaks and I just looked at her, she's already drunk

"I know I hurted her but I am hurting too. I just want her to listen to me, is it that hard?" She said and there are tears streaming from her eyes, it hurts seeing your love ones hurting like this

"Min that's enough" I said

"I love her, and it hurts seeing her with that girl, I wish that was me, I wish it's still me" she continued as she cried so hard and I want to cry too but I can't

"Min you're drunk let's go home" I said as I held her arm to help her get up

"No! I'm not yet finished!"she said and she pull her arm

"That's enough, you can't even stand and walk properly on your own"

"I can!" She said and she tried to stand up but she almost fell but I caught her quickly

"See? You can't! Let's go now" I said and I paid the drinks the we ordered and I brought Minju to my car. She's really drunk, she almost finished the whole bottle.

I was fastening her seatbelt when she speaks

"You!" She said

"What?"

"Please call Yujin, I need her" she said and she closed her eyes

And as I heard that I feel like my heart being stabbed for million times

"I'm just here Min, why do you have to find her when I'm just here, by your side, waiting for your love" I said but I know she won't hear me anymore so I just started the engine and drive away

When we reached my condo I immediately put her on my bed and I was about to stand up when she pull me

"Yujin... You're here" She said and she smiled

"I miss you" she said as she hugs me "I still love you please forgive me" she's hallucinating

"Sleep now Min, I love you" I said

"I know you still love me" she caressed my face "I love you too...Yujin" she smile as she close her eyes and drifts to her dreamland

And I can't hold back my tears anymore as it escapes my eyes. Heartbroken and painful are understatement for what I'm feeling right now and I hate myself for loving someone who can't love me back. I want to stop but I can't, it's hard.