Mattia's pov:
I open my eyes to see y/n not next to me. I get a little worried and jump right out of bed. I look around the house and she's no where to be seen.
Mattia- Y/N
No answer
Mattia- Y/N
Still no answer
Mattia- Y/N WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU
He yells.
But still.
No answer
Mattia- I gotta look for her.
End of pov
Your pov:
I heard mattia's voice but ignored it. I was currently on the rooftop. I was smoking a blunt. It always calmed me down. I look at my wrists and they're slitAll alone..
All I wanted was my dad. I felt so alone. So hopeless
All alone..
I know mattia cares about me and I care about him. But I want to see my dad
All alone..
I want to see him.
All alone..
I need to see him.
All alone..
I will see him....
All alone.
I don't know how. But I will. I know I will. I miss my dad. But mattia doesn't understand that. He has a mom and dad. I haven't seen my parents in years. And now that my dad is alive. I have to see him.
I look at my wrists and see blood everywhere
Y/n- fuck
I said to myself
You were wearing a black hoodie so mattia couldn't see the cuts. You know if you told him he would feel terrible. But none of this is his fault. It's mine. I did this to myself. I made myself feel sad again. I'm....All alone..
Again. I know it may not seem like I am. But I feel like I am. It feels like I have no body on my side. It's like mattia is my bodyguard. But I hate it. But I can't leave him. I love him to much. I'm crazy for him. I mean I killed 7 people. I still haven't gotten caught. What do I do. I really don't know what to do. Should I leave?
So what do you guys think should y/n leave or stay? Cause like idk?
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