Manipulator | Hitoshi Shinso x Reader | DISCONTINUED

Chapter 25

Shigaraki's POV

I walked over to the light post near the park bench. It was quiet and the sound of leaves rustling together made me shiver a bit. I adjusted my hoodie, making sure nobody can see my face or my hair or my face. The slight breeze felt cold on my face and I began to sniffle. I shoved my hands in my hoodie pocket and began to walk down a sidewalk. It was almost sun down. Soon to be dark. Which is perfect for what I'm about to do. My mind was going crazy with the thought of this backfiring. Please don't let it back fire. Anything but that. The street lights turned on which signaled its getting dark. How do I know that they're out and about? Good question. I don't. Its like when twins say that have that special sense for each other. Its the same way for us but it's one sided. She left an imprint on me. She saw something in me when she looked into my eyes and I want to know what she saw. I want to know what she saw because I can't see it myself. Its like she's the only one who can. I wanted to see her again. So, here I am.

She was hugging his arm like he was the one. Like he was the one who can give her the world. Little does she know, I'm the one with the world in my hands. She was looking up at the sky with a smile and I looked up too. All I saw was a sky with clouds. Nothing special, so why is she smiling? I directed my eyesight back to her and they were already ahead. "Should I follow them? I don't know where they're going but I want to be near her. I just want to know. I'm curious that's all." I whispered to myself, trying to gain some reassurance that following them is okay and that I'm not insane. I crossed the street and made myself remember to keep some distance between. Please don't turn back. My pace began to slow down once I saw her turn around. She didn't stop walking. She just turned her head around. My steps began to feel heavy and my heart began to race. Her face. Why was she scared? Did she recognize who I was? I knew I should've wore something to make myself look less noticeable. Her head turned back to the front and she hugged Shinso's arm tighter. That should be me.

"Why are you afraid? You looked at me like you saw something in me. So why are you scared now?" I mumbled to myself, wishing I can just ask her that myself. But, its not the time. She clearly doesn't want anything to do with me. That's what I don't understand. She befriended me and acted like I'm not a villain. She treated me equal. Why are you afraid? I sped up a little bit but keeping a safe distance. Please look at me that way again. I need to feel what I felt when you did. Its what keeps the itching away. It calms me. Y/n can you hear me? I need you again. I walked faster noticing that I have nothing to lose. I reached out for her arm but just before I could, they walked towards an arcade place with bright lights and people standing outside. I retracted my hand and my smile faded. My hand immediately ran up my neck and began scratching, seeing him hold the door open for her. "I'm too late." I whispered. I looked around at the signs that were flashing their bright vivid colors.

I turned around, shoving both my hands back in my hoodie's pocket. The breeze began to pick up again, causing me to shiver. "Why didn't I just call out for her?" I asked myself. With that feeling I get when I see her, I forget how to function. I get all warm inside but I also freeze up. Why is that? I can never understand it. I don't think I ever will because she's not here with me. If he only understood how lucky he is to get to see her everyday. He gets to she her smile and he gets to hear her sweet soft voice. He has her heart. Meanwhile she has mine. Its alright though. Its alright that she has my heart. Its not like I needed it anyway. The stars above me were all scattered and the moon stood bright amongst then all. So many of them were watching my every step. I stopped in my tracks and stood next to a light post. The street was quiet. The leaves rustled and my gaze went back up to the moon.

"If I cant have her, promise me you'll watch over her. Please let me have another chance to talk to her again. I just-" I stopped what I was saying, realizing I was talking to a damn rock in the sky. "What am I doing? I'm such a dumbass." I said to myself, looking around to see if there was anybody that heard or saw the stupid thing I just did. Then I just sighed, continuing my walk back home. She really got me talking to a rock. I swear she's the only one that can make me do that.  Its impossible trying to escape the moon when it looms over me. I don't want to go home but I need to go back in order for me to plan what to do next. I refuse to let it end this way. I need to tell her how she makes me feel.