"HONEY ITS TIME FOR DINNER!" i heard my mom shout. I smiled widely i can finally get out of here. daddy said i wasn't behaving very well and said i couldn't come out till dinner time. i heard the door the room open and mommy was smiling widely as i ran into her arms. "lets go honey," she whispered in my ear kissing the top of my head. i rushed downstairs and sat at the dinner table and looked at the yummy food.
"yum mashed potatoes." i licked my lips before mom placed a bowl with peas on the side. i scrunched up my nose before looking up again.
"i dont like these mommy." i saw her take a deep breath as i pushed it away. i heard someone slam their hand on the table has i gasped and jumped slightly. i saw my dad with a bottle in his hand and his red eyes.
"YOU UNGRATEFUL LITTLE SHIT. THEIR A KIDS STARVING WISHING THEY COULD HAVE THIS AND DO YOU KNOW HOW LUCKY YOU ARE." i nodded my head slightly scared.
He slammed his fists down causing the peas at the edge of the table to fall and break. my eyes widened. oh no. i was really going to get it now.
"LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID NOW." he pulled me by my hair and slammed me against a wall.
"ROBERT THAT IS ENOUGH!" my mommy yelled. daddy started laughing and let go of my hair making me drop to the floor. i scrambled over to the corner and sat with my knees pulled up as i buried my head into them.
i heard a loud slap and looked up to see my dad hitting my mommy. he had a black object in his hand and was going to pull a trigger. i screamed and jumped on top of him causing the fun to shoot towards the ceiling. i told my mommy to run as my dad fell to the ground but she took me from his hold and ran upstairs. she locked the door and held my face in her hands.
"sweetie stay here its safer here always remember mommy loves you." she said as tears rolled down her face. i knew something was wrong so i did what i was told. i stayed in the closet peeking through the little holes.
"i love you mommy" i whispered as she walked and sat down the bed crying in her hands.
"OPEN THIS FUCKING DOOR." i heard my dad yell i stepped back a little but got closer to see what was happening. soon enough the door busted open and he came in with a gun in his hand. i put my hand over my mouth and gasped quietly. "WHY DONT YOU LISTEN TO ME WHEN I TALK TO YOU!" he grabbed my mom by her hair and threw her on the floor kicking her.
i soon came out and pushed my dad. a gunshot was fired. i quickly got up and ran to the corner of the room as my dad was on the otherside of the room. he got up slowly and looked at my mom. she was pale and lifeless. it was all my fault i looked up from the ground and saw my mom,
"ITS ALL YOUR FAULT!" she screamed.
i jolted awake and noticed i was crying and sweating, i looked around in the dark room not being able to see much of anything. it was all my fault. i got up quickly and walked to the bathroom in my room. thank god i didnt have to walk out. i rolled up my sleeve but didnt bother turning on the light hopefully i cut a vein or something.
i slashed my skin hard twice before wincing in pain as i did the next 3 slowly because i deserved it. it was all my fault my mom was dead. god why am i so worthless and stupid. i sat down on the bathroom floor and cried quietly so my dad wouldn't hear me.
not like he would care i just was not in the mood for any harsh comments. i was feeling hungry but i shouldn't eat people at school usually call me 'whale' because of how fat i am but hey who could blame them. i got up not caring to clean my cuts, and went to bed.
