White Lies~Traphouse Fanfiction

Chapter 2 ~ Anxiety

RECAP
"S-Sam!" I yelled my voice cracking as I started to hyperventilate.

Sams POV
    "Bye Sam, Bye Jake, Bye Corey!!" I heard Lizzy yell. I just rolled my eyes as the others said bye back to her. I've never liked her, I've heard to many bad things about her. I don't want Colby with someone who has a history of cheating and drugs. I can't stand to see him hurt, and last time something really bad happened to him....my thoughts were cut off suddenly by Colby yelling for me. I paused my game and stood up "Colby?!" I yelled starting to walk towards the stairs. When I didn't get a response I knew something was wrong so I quickly ran to Colby's room opening the door to see him sat against his bed with his face completely hidden by his knees and I could see him shaking. I ran to his side kneeling down by him, "Hey, hey what's wrong" I whispered "W-W-What if she's cheating on me" Colby said as his voice cracks. "She isn't cheating on you Colby...I promise..." I said as I pulled him close trying to comfort him. Then I noticed him start to play with his sleeves but I pretended not to notice "You want me to stay for a while?" I asked getting a quick nod from Colby.

Colby's POV
    I felt like I couldn't breath, my chest was so tight and I was terrified, this was my first anxiety attack in months I was clinging to Sam as I was shaking "Colby please try to calm down..." I heard Sam mumble as he pulled me closer to his chest as I started to sob "I love her so much Sammy...I don't want to lose her!" I yelled my voice cracking a lot "Colby I won't let you lose her, but if you do please promise me we won't have a repeat of anything....all of us love you so much" I looked at Sam and nodded, I hated lying to him but I couldn't help it I didn't want him to worry about me anymore.
*Timeskip 2 hours later*
"Y-You can leave now" I said wiping the tears off of my face. "Ok, Remember we love you Colbs." Sam smiled at me and left my room. I stood up and walked over to my dresser opening the top hidden drawer rummaging through it looking for something I haven't seen in 3 months
⚠️BIG TW YOU'VE BEEN WARNED⚠️
As I found it I took it out of my drawer putting it into my pocket and walking to the bathroom shutting and locking the door turning on the shower so they wouldn't think anything of it, then I pulled it out of my pocket. My blade, I haven't used this in so long, the roommates thought they got rid of it after I ended up in the hospital. I put the blade against the wrist and slid it across crying out in pain cursing under my breath as I made 5 more cuts on each arm, not realizing how much time has passed I was snapped out of my thoughts by someone knocking on the door "Y-es" I yelled in a strained voice as I made another cut. "Colby you ok? You've been in there for like a half hour" Jake said from the other side of the door "Yeah sorry! I-m just getting out!" I mumbled loud enough for him to hear as I shut off the shower. "Okay...come to my room when ur out!" Then he walked away. I quickly wet down my hair to make it look like I was showering then rinsed off my wrist and put on a maroon hoodie. Putting the blade back into my pocket forcing myself to stop shaking. I took a deep breath and walked to Jakes room knocking on the door "Colbssssss the doors opennnnn" Jake whined making me chuckle a little as I walked in sitting on the edge of his bed putting on a painfully fake smile "What's up Jakeyyy" I said making my voice girly. "Colby. Cut the crap." He said in a very dominant voice "What are you t-talking about?" I tried to keep my voice steady "Colby. Don't try to lie to me." He slightly glared at me. "I-I have to go call Lizzy.." I tried to make an excuse getting up and starting to walk off just making Jake grab my arm and pull me back to his bed as he stood up standing in front of me "Colby!" He was pissed. "What?!?" I growled back "Pull up your sleeves." He demanded making sure I couldn't get up and run "W-What n-no.." I mumbled holding my sleeve down "Colby now." He grabbed my wrist tightly making my cry in pain slightly "N-No!!" I tried to get away from Jake. "God damnit Colby!" He pulled my sleeve up quickly and turned my arm over. "Colby why...." His voice got quiet and he loosened his grip "I-Im sorry!" I started to cry again.

A/N
Ok wow I cried writing that. Um wow, I'm so sorry for that part and I hope it didn't really trigger anyone to much. I love Colby so much and would literally die if he did this I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. Love you my lil no names! Cloudy out 🥰