I've lost track of how long we've been here. I know it must have been a few months, but I don't know exactly how long.
I sigh and rest my head on Will's shoulder, and he wraps an arm around me and looks down at me.
"Hey," he says gently, pushing hair out of my eyes, "what's wrong?"
"Hm?" I look at him and frown gently, and then shake my head and force what I hope is a convincing smile. "Nothing. I'm fine."
"Look, Chris... I know you. Something's up, I can tell." he sighs.
"Nothing's wrong, Will. I'm fine," I say shortly, looking away.
"Christina, I'm just trying to help you," he pulls away from me, sounding slightly annoyed.
"You don't need to help me with everything." I snap back.
"Wow..." Will sounds hurt, and I let myself look over to him for a moment and see tears in his eyes. They're in mine, too. "That hurt, Chris."
"Like you even care about me," I stand up and turn away, taking a deep breath to stop myself from crying.
"Jesus, would you stop saying that?" I hear him stand next to me, but I look at the ground and avoid his gaze. "I hate it when you say things like that. Do you really think I'd lie to you about something like that?"
"I don't know..." I say quietly, my voice becoming choked with tears.
"What, so you don't trust me?"
I fall silent for a while, shocked, hurt. I bite my lip and quickly wipe away a tear that managed to escape.
"I never said that, Will. Of course I trust you-"
"Well, you sure as hell don't act like it."
I look up at him with tears in my eyes, and it takes a moment before I'm able to talk again.
"If that's what you think, maybe I should just go."
"Wait-"
"You should've just let me die, Will," I cut him off, tears starting to escape down my cheeks. "Everyone would've been better off that way, no one even cares about me. I'm just... worthless."
"Chris..."
"Just leave me alone!" I scream, turning and running, not stopping until I know I'm far enough away. I lean against the wall and sob, hiding my face in my hands and falling to the ground.
I've ruined everything. I've lost him.
It's starting to get dark now. Normally at this time of day, Will wraps his arms around me, to warm me, and keep me safe.
But he isn't here. He isn't here to hold me. And now I'm just cold, and alone. I feel more alone now than I ever have.
I shouldn't have said anything.
"God, I'm sorry Will, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I honestly wish you had let me fall... you would've been so much better off that way. I love you. I really love you. I'm sorry."
I don't get any sleep that night. I just stay in the same position, shivering in the cold, wishing I could change it.
A/N: Okay I broke the pattern of the end of chapters and this one's short but shh...
