Shraman Songs Series (SSS)

Main rahoon ya nah rahoon

Dedicated to- Gauri_0705

Situation- The night before shravan was about to go to london. Even though she did not want to, she had to left his house as his family was back from the wedding.

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Shravan is sitting on his bed, his back resting on the bedrest. He is looking at her pictures in his phone's gallery, which they have taken few hours before.

A smile crept on his lips looking at her picture, he has taken when she was dancing. "Khuni Chudail" that's what he called her.

As he swiped left another picture came which is of his passport, he sent to his travel agent and then reality hits hard. We will no longer be able to see her from tomorrow. He won't be able to spent time with her, he will be no longer the reason of her smile and then definitely will be deprived of her blabber. This thought only made him cringe.

Why can't she tell him to stay because he genuinely need just her one word and he will not even think about london.

Say it once sumo. Just say stay and i will stay hundred times. Give me a reason please. This is what his heart was craving and asking for. But will he ever say it out loud to her?

Not being able to take it anymore, he connected his i-pods and tried to distract his mind by listening songs. But deep down he already knew he won't be able to.

Mein rahoon ya na rahoon
Tum mujhme kahi baqi rehna 
Mujhe neend aaye jo akhiri 
Tum khaabo mein aate rehna

(I live or may not live
You should stay somewhere with me, inside me 
If my last day comes, my dying moment comes 
You keep coming into my dreams)

He sighed listening to the first line. Yes she will always stay with him even if he will be miles away from her. She definitely will be there in his mind when he will take his last breath because she is always there. There is not a day went where he had not thought about her and he does not even think a day like this will ever come.

Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna 
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna 

(Just this is what I want to tell you
Just this is what I want to tell you
Just this is what I want to tell you
Just this is what I want to tell you )

Thats all what he really want to tell her but the thought of her breaking his heart never left him so he tried to move on and tried here means just a meager attempt. That's a con of being in love with your best friend. As much as you want to tell them, the fear of loosing overpowers every time.

Mein rahoon ya na rahoon 
Tum mujhme kahi baqi rehna 

(I live or may not live  
You should stay somewhere with me)
  

Even if i will not be with her from now on but my memories will be there with her, when ever she will think about me she will find me with her, in her smile, in her tears, in her laugh and even in her jokes which amuse only her.

Kisi roz baarish jo aaye
Samaj lena boondo mein main hu 
Subah dhoop tumko sataaye 
Samaj lena kirno mein main hu