I want you.
And I never knew those words could be so complex yet so simple. I want something from you I can't have yet I can't understand. I'm tired of playing a front and acting like I don't care I feel it in my inside and it hurts me some days and it hurts worse when I see you. I see myself spiraling into something I don't want to. I see myself falling into old habits... I see them in your eyes. I hear it in your laugh. I don't want you anymore. I feel as if you'd give me something I've always desired, baby there's gold in your eyes and I don't want to stop digging. I don't want to stop climbing those walls you seem to build up so high. I don't get tired I just get frustrated ..it seems like every wall I jump over...there's a new one. Why do I see something in you that you can't even see in yourself? Is it my fire reflecting off your eyes? Or is it my submerged sadness making me want you so bad.? I cried that day on the bench because I realize you were there but not really there. I realize I wanted something from you that you could never give me but I keep searching for. I met you when I was 16 and I don't remember falling for you. I kinda remember the laughs ..the smile the touch and kiss. Now you're the words on this paper. I don't want to lose you. But I'm trying to let you go. I'm falling into old habits and I'm hating myself for that.
I still can't stop smiling when I see you....
YOU ARE READING
Chocolate Ice Cream
Romance//: We lived in a place called temporary. It was cheap. But you had a way of making evanescent feel like ecstasy. It was your eyes that foreshowed forever. Your laugh that sung eternity. Those lips that tasted like long term. I was left homeless whe...
